Nimihsity

2010-12-14T11:15:00.000+08:00

Shimin, please learn to let go of the past D:

find me here

2009-11-18T16:25:00.001+08:00

with love ♥

getting a tad too off

2009-10-15T23:18:00.002+08:00

im so full :D
had dinner with chweemei, xiaoxiaohui & yangbo just now at xinwang!
fav-ed place of all times.
peanut butter toast (L)
now im freaking full

i think im getting more & more vulgar, more & more gl when talking to BB chweelum

de_nimihs@hotmail.com says: (11:16:53 PM)
have fun
de_nimihs@hotmail.com says: (11:17:04 PM)
don't woohoo too much
That kind of love. says: (11:17:56 PM)
WOO YOUR LJ LEH
de_nimihs@hotmail.com says: (11:17:59 PM)
HAHAHAHAHA
That kind of love. says: (11:18:11 PM)
wah suck lor you

p.s: if you do play sims. you get what woohoo means ;)

seriously, this cracks me up (L)

AHHHH!

2009-10-14T00:07:00.002+08:00

needtoscream.badly

3 more days.

i thought i was going to collapse and die on the way home.
my eyes said they need to cry for awhile.
why? you asked.
i have no idea. just a sudden urge.

maybe im just too tired.
goodnight (L)

meaningless weekends

2009-10-12T00:49:00.002+08:00

woke up at 9am yesterday and went ICA. (was supposed to reach there at 9am instead -_-)
freaking tired. took 2 iron pills while waiting & it made me felt sick, prolly because I didn't had breakfast.
gotten my new passport finally :D

headed down to outram to donate blood. luckily my haemoglobin level is enough this time round.
mind you, i took 4 iron tablets just in a morning D:
& wow, i didn't realise i've already donated for like what. 7 times already?
long way to go still (:
im really interested in donated plasma/platelets though.

bought some travel necessities. took a train back to punggol cause I simply need a seat to sleep. & yeah i slept throughout the whole journey. it made me realised that my weekends are getting meaningless. at least if im out working at b&j i get to earn. & im so not used to slacking at home already! can you believe that i rather work D: & im not feeling dreadful that there's work tomorrow.

5 days to end work. we're all excited. time to party on friday night :D
& 9 days to bangkok. after watching all the varietyshows/reading forums and stuffs. it simply just made me excited.
<3<3
managed to save up some money. but i doubt they'll be enough for me. im such an impulse buyer.
hope can get mum/dad to sponsor a bit (L)
shall be thrifty this week!

once bitten, twice shy

2009-10-06T00:19:00.002+08:00

lost in mahjong today! though i 满台自摸 the very first round. thanks ar olivia! for cursing me D:
nevermind, luck will get better.

9 more days to freedom <3
16 days to bangkok. goodness. haven't prepare a single thing yet. though the most important thing to prepare would be money.

i think i twisted my hand.
from scooping the icecream yesterday.

for in love

2009-10-04T01:52:00.002+08:00

he said, she for in love with the wrong guy
true enough.

damn tired please.
gathering at aunt's place after work.
food was awesome (L)
but im freaking tired.

brought home a big big box of newyorksuperfudgechunk. now im a happy girl :D
i used to dislike icecream. i prefer sorbet or yoghurt icecream cause normal icecream is sinful and too milky for me.
but now im loving b&j icecream! & it's way more sinful than wall's icecream.
oh god. bless me with high metabolism rate.
i don't wanna add one more surgery to my list - liposuction

wannasleepwannasleepwannasleep.
goodnight folks

tired

2009-09-30T13:31:00.002+08:00

have been sleeping at weird hours like 3/4am since Friday.
not that i wasn't like that. but just that it sucks to wake when there's work tomorrow.
plus, im working 7 days straight. for the sake of bangkok. what to do? ):

even double dosage of cough syrup doesn't put me to sleep immediately.
but i'll always wake up drowsy instead.
i think. im back to my haggard, sickly look. okay la. all along im like that.

SIGH.

mp proposal due by 15 oct.
more&more working files passed to us (though we're left with only 2 weeks)
& weekly target.
seriously. it's getting too busy.

kacha!

2009-09-29T02:31:00.002+08:00

met with lixin today ((:
the whole photoshoot was damn awkward.
i hate my photo set, she hate hers.
i like hers, she likes mine. haha!

but we both like the one we took together.

went to clarke quay to camwhore. & we took an awesome loads of pics!
i bet people must be thinking that we are crazy!
but the pictures turned out great! & we conclude that we are better photographers

pictures up soon! (:

work's tmr. life's back to reality.

life is looking good

2009-09-26T02:17:00.002+08:00

indeed, today is a better day.

completed 2 clients' cases. managed to churn out 5 web duplications.
& biggest worry resolved.

b&j at vivo tomorrow. might have a chance to work at f1 rocks tomorrow night if chwee confirms.
gotta be a cool job (:

played mahjong with hanchiew, kelvin, jingwen&chwee just now.
(:

& finally bought 2 pairs of coloured contacts with olivia :D exciting.

life's busy but happening. okay. better than slacking and nuaing on the bed.

happy girl today (:

busy&stressed

2009-09-24T22:30:00.003+08:00

can't believe i'm saying this but life's been real busy nowadays. rushing for target and report. people strives under stress?
now i even have 4 files from work on my table. gotta finish them by tonight, well at least 2. so that it won't be another stressful day tomorrow. now 16 working days seems so long. hurry end please. can't wait for my bangkok trip (L)

working like a mad workaholic. with 7 days work week ):
no time for facebook, no time for twitter.

sigh. it's a bad day today.
some !&*^@!&#^@ horse-alike whore (aiya i can't find any other words to describe) took like million of years to think about something and yet came up with nothing but lame stuffs.
now i hope for tomorrow to be a better day.

harvest time! &then continue to work ):

screwed

2009-09-23T22:41:00.002+08:00

i think i am.
for i've only been working 3 days per week for the past 2 weeks + this.
my timesheet is even more pathetic than last month
last month is almost all red (because im late D: ) this month it's almost empty.
phone calls yet to be made, report to be submitted at the end of the week (which is like friday) and a target of 10 websites duplication. & holy shit. I've not even done 1 yet.

work = stress
17 working days more. (L)
it sounds little but yet not that little.

working at vivo this weekend i guess.

1 bangkok trip = hard earned money poof! D:

still not feeling that very good today. all i want to do is just to lie on bed ):

installed sims2&exp pack :D sims 3 is frigging laggy so no choice but to give that up ):

on a side note, im happy&excited for my pengyouuuu (:
like finally. & you know if all things fail you still got me!

bad dream last night

2009-09-19T23:54:00.002+08:00

i hate it when i get sore throat, because

sore throat > flu (runny/blocked nose) > cough for 23838242 days

tried all kinds of stuffs like chinese herbal tea, medicines and just tried hot coke with lime&ginger. i think it made my throat more uncomfortable.

worked at compasspoint today (:

chocolate macademia's this week flavour. doesn't seems nice to me. yet to taste it though. but shall get a chance to try it tomorrow. new flavour (:

& i totally think Singaporeans are sometimes scary.

had a bad dream in the morning. i dreamt that the clock was 10 minutes to 12 and my dad said he is going back. the door can't be opened (because it's the last day of the 7th month and all doors are shut tight to prevent spirits from coming in) and he was all panicky because he gotta be back before it strike 12. and i told him that he can just walk past the door and said we will meet again during qingming. (er yes, i dreamt that he was a spirit *touchwood*) so he tried to put his hand through the door and it works.

then the very next moment my mum was telling me that she is staying put to take care of us. and i told her she can't, if not she will vanish into thin air when it strike 12 if she dont go. and as she is a new spirit, she should hurry and follow my dad if not she would get lost. super super bad dream and nonsensical.

then i woke at 8am, and im wondering why am i not crying. (because i always find myself crying when i wake if it's something sad) so i sat up and started to cry. then i went back to bed and dreamt about the same bloody thing again. wtf. something is seriously wrong with me T_T

but it made me realised something. if something ever happen to my parents *touchwood* it will also be the end of my life. in fact, im not that independent as i thought i was.

plus, there's nothing to expect in life.

meeting a client at his office in woodlands next tuesday D:

first time in my life doing this kind of things, as in going out for appointment to meet a client. im more of excited than worried :D

but i hope he will be nice.

okay. gotta sleeep. working tomorrow (:

(L)

gone with the wind

2009-09-17T00:12:00.002+08:00

attempting to sleep, with stuffy/blocked nose. this is like torturous .

any good remedy to get rid of this stupid flu?

memories brought me back to 15. i didn't think that i was a kid then. but looking at my cousins/brother, they are still kids to me. now im 19, i don't think that im a kid anymore, but i guess the adults will just treat us as kids forever.

go away. shoo you flu.

what's wrong with some people

2009-09-15T16:14:00.000+08:00

some people just behave immaturely.

& it just gets on my nerve. grgh.
i just wonder if they are sarcastic or what.

f off please.

image heavy

2009-09-14T16:44:00.006+08:00

freaking tired despite sleeping for 10 hours already. body aching real badly like some old woman. sore throat's like a bitch.
gotten 2 days mc today. 3 working days again this week.
just took some medicine. might just drift off to sleep any sooner.

booked tickets to bangkok (: flying on 21st oct with jane,lindy,jazz&boon. lets hope i will have sufficient money to shop by then. can't wait for a&w & the awesome shopping spree (:

just bought red nano & no longer than 2 weeks, new nano is out, with radio & video recording functions. plus it's cheaper by 20. am i just suay or suay?

uploading pictures now (:

worked at siglap centre yesterday. first time i heard of it & first time i went there.
yesterday flavour was strawberry cheesecake. yummy! (:
i got approx. half a box of it in my fridge now. but sadly, i can't eat it now as much as i want to.
there was this wall's icecream promoter. damn bitchy. took loads of our icecream, yet complain this &that.
we were bitching real badly about her.

im seriously addicted to etude house products! best of all, it's endorsed by leeminho & he's coming on oct 10. omg <3
im gonna try more of their products soon (:
it's awesomely good.

i got so many pictures to be posted that i don't know where to start from D:

Jane's Birthday 110909

Went to meet lumchwee on Friday before heading for Jane's birthday at V8 cafe at bugis.
went to ktvpub @boatquay after that. chivas&hoegarden (:
luckily i was neither high nor drunk that day.
& i kind of miss nightlife.

the girls (: grace, me, jane, michelle&lindy

the guys - boon, stephen & bryan

who's dude and who's cute?

lurking behind like a ghost D:

Back to Ayer Tawar 040909

went back to malaysia on 4th Sept. taking the night bus was pretty cool (: left Singapore around 10pm and reach at 6am in the morning.
seriously, malaysia's custom sucks.
that stupid man asked, "why you never change your passport photo?" & obviously if no one asked you to change, why would you change for nothing? (plus i just went cambodia this year without having any issues) so i replied in a pissed tone "they also never ask me to change what" & i think he got pissed as well & shoot "it's your passport, not theirs. it's your responsibility not theirs. i give you a letter you go back to singapore now."
it's seriously wtf. so in an even pissed tone, i rebuked, "why?" luckily my dad stepped in & the man kept asking "so how? how you want to settle?"
all the money eater. may money crush on you one day

it's really awesome to live in countryside (:

grandmum planted a few fruit trees

rambutan tree

guava tree

durian tree

mango tree

grandparent's house (:

my favourite spot of all

kitchen area

living room

went penang on sunday (: first time i've been there. pretty cool place.

penang laksa. very different from singapore laksa

took a train up penang hill. super steep & scary
took roughly 20 minutes to get to the peak. and it's only RM4 for both way

scenery up there is (Y)

went to grandparent's plantation on monday morning. first time i've been to a plantation too

daddy rode me on the motorbike.

papaya :D

daddy & granddad

daddy chopping the sugarcane

rubber tree (:

oil palm seed? used for making cooking oil

before leaving for Singapore on monday.

mummy & grandmum under the durian tree

left around 9am in the morning and reached home at 7pm D:

B&J 290809

first week of working at B&J (:
met super nice people!

Choco fudge brownie for you?

samples (: we kept eating & eating (Y)

Lame cards. "you're a winner because you rock"

with yuhan&lixin (:

audrey, me & lixin (:

Late Night K @ CineKbox 210809

me, jane &grace

getting serious

Some other pictures since aeons ago.

Bird's farewell

Card we made for her

& malasteamboat session (which was like don't know how long ago)

my mountain of golden mushroom

& the guys had a few mountains of crayfish. pure madness

my fav-ed ice! (: new place found, other than ice mountain

*****************************************************************

im so addicted to SS501's lalala
look at hyunjoong! pinned up hair (:

but he looked kind of ugly when he was in high school. i wonder why

Neglected Blog

2009-09-13T00:58:00.000+08:00

& now I've tons of pictures to post. wanted to write a long post tomorrow but B&J finally called me for work tomorrow at Siglap. Ulu place D:

&blogger is screwed again.

superhearts ben&jerry's

2009-08-30T23:56:00.002+08:00

wanted to decline working for ben&jerry's because working at weekend is such a chore (especially when im working in the weekdays) but often things that seems bad turn out to be really great.

okay, so im having a really good pay now (better than my shitty internship), working with really awesome people! and very nice environment. the people at cold storage are (Y) & we get to have endless scoops of b&j's ice cream. & we did crazy things like giving a really big scoop of ice cream just on a teeny weeny spoon to a promoter there, laughed & walked off.

it's fun& slack that im no longer working for money(ok i still do) but fun plays a big big part. can't wait for the week after! hopefully back into the same team again!

im gonna try all the flavours of b&j icecream!

pictures up soon!

what's the world coming to?

2009-08-27T00:00:00.002+08:00

hypocrisy, lies, doubts, anger.

have you ever wondered if your closest friend will ever betray you or someone you thought you could trust ends up to be the worst enemy ever.

i need to disappear from this world.

for a month -_-

blogger's back to normal

2009-08-25T00:37:00.001+08:00

my mom is pmsing. it sucks.

now im stress at work and stress at home. shit.
and im even more stress that i will fall back to depression. fuck it.
all i see in my mind are pills & wrist.
im scared to lose my willpower. i don't want to do all these nonsense anymore.

gawd. save me from the trouble.

i felt so much like screaming but who will hear my pleas.

ARGH.

Time to say bye to blogger

2009-08-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

it's still as screwed. i want to change a new blog host. & of course, more privacy :D

livejournal, wretch or wordpress? your take?

went for late night k at cine on friday :D from 11 till 5 plus in the morning.

just came back from dinner at royalhotel for steamboat :D damn awesome.
& im freaking full now.

omgzxs work tomorrow again. my life's sad.
what if i get depression from working? T_T

blogger's still as screwed

2009-08-19T22:56:00.002+08:00

ok finally fixed my blogskin for IE. tell me if it's still screwed or even worse ):

i think that's damn funny

★ 翼宿・翼宿・翼宿・翼宿 ★ says:
*hahaha
*so loser lo. everyday only think about money

('.')shimin('.') says:
*hehehe
*later money crush him and he dies

★ 翼宿・翼宿・翼宿・翼宿 ★ says:
*ya that's be ironic
*like imagine one day he damn happy
*tio ma piao
*then when he walk to bank got ppl shoot him then he die
*cos they wanna rob bank

('.')shimin('.') says:
*HAHHAHAHHAHAHA
*omg wtfffff

okay 57 days to end of SIP. the day of freedom ):
& time is passing like slower and slower everyday. sigh

i love my nails now <3<3 of rainbow colours. reminds me of m&ms

UPDATESx830548281028

2009-08-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

my blogger is screwed. therefore I don't even feel like updating anymore. should move back to wretch or livejournal soon. sucks blogger sucks.

like my new layout? :D:D
the layout's kinda screwed on Internet Explorer though.
Safari&Firefox ftw.

wanted to upload tons of pics but i shall forgo the thought since blogger is screwed up.
& i passed my ftt today! actually decided to take lessons next year but since mummy asked why didn't i get my PDL today so i shall take lessons after internship ends.

oh btw. my beloved macbook for 2&half year is in coma. i tried to murdered it. not beyond repair but im hoping to get a new one. so i don't bloody hell want to repair it. if i know that it's gonna send for repair what for i kill it in the first place. tsk.

newmacnewmacnewmac

ok & i bought a sewing machine & plenty of cloth. $400 gone ):
just like that time i bought many beads in one go and spent around $200 on it.
FML

next target will be a red cammie from canon.

i wonder, why those who should leave, remains. & those who should remain, leaves.

& heh 2 new eyecandies :D

for a mom, i thought im back into taiwanese but he's like korean mixed blood.

& my 2nd eye candy. Bosco (:(:

okay. tired
studied till 3am last night ):

damnit. where's pay?

2009-08-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

today was rather slow paced & in fact very sleepy.
it's only 10.56pm. light's off & preparing to go to bed soon while waiting for lumchwee to come online so that i can tell her that i'm damn gian to go bkk with her this december.

shit man. if only the sky drops a million to me.

whole loads of things to do.

1) get sewing machine
2) get an oven for baking session
3) new cammie
4) whitening jabs
5) new macbook
6) driving lessons!
7) bangkok trip
8) cambodia trip w/ oli's church (that's prolly a maybe looking at the situation now D:)
9) hongkong+macau trip with 38
10) godamnit 14 days trip to taiwan

mummy will prolly scream at me cause i'm going to assume that 5 & 6 will be sponsored by her & 9 & 10 will be taken from my fd account ;D

i want to get my sewing machine before my desires fade off. so where's my pay? it's only a measly 440. surely they don't need that long to count that pathetic amount. sigh.

i guess i do a bit of update

2009-08-03T00:46:00.004+08:00

before my blog becomes ancient.
i don't even have time to delete the spam tags from my brother

work day again tomorrow, with new job scope. calling up clients & meeting them. i won't mind if they are not bitchy or hard to handle. else i'll be saying the title of the song im listening now straight in their face. fuck you by lily allen :D ok. im nice, so i prolly wont do that & will tio depression by the end of my internship. oh god. 100 over cases to complete for the next 2 months.

have been meeting classmates every friday after work. makes me look forward to ending work on a friday :D
first friday went hongkong cafe @ taka; 2nd friday went for ma la steamboat ; 3rd friday at a japanese foodcourt at pomo (as well as oli's birthday celebration) & just this friday at old airport road :D

some overdued pics

i realized i didn't upload steamboat pics yet. when i have spare time ):

im so hungry now.

went to birdbird's farewell dinner just now. too bad wanni's not here ):

omg. i need to save a lot. like A LOT

sewing machine, whitening jabs, camera, hongkong+macau trip, taiwan trip. & maybe bangkok and cambodia trip to add. if only im drawing a salary of $1440 now. internship sucks.

got a call from jasbir asking if im interested to work at the f1 roadshow again. omg. of course i am. can work with meimei again :D we're both working for the sake of fun.
but internship sucks sucks sucks.

okay im going to bed now. byebye

good piece of news

2009-07-19T03:26:00.002+08:00

something which i thought was a pity, long lost might be taking its chance to recover. anticipate to what the future may brings (:

& this lead me to another path.
the future is full of surprises; so why get stuck in history & thinks that it's the end of the world.
might be foolish might be naive once. but not forever.
i think i'm good at counseling; self counseling to be precise.

can't wait to get my hand on a sewing machine. so then design can be made real.
spoilt for choices.

i hope i dont wake at 7.30 again D:
body alarm is too good to be true -_-

long time since i had a leg cramp in the middle of the night too. my muscle is somehow still aching.

okay. off to bed.

it's work again

2009-07-14T22:43:00.002+08:00

went to yello jello last saturday with wenwen. a long time since i went there.
& the thing michelle asked was, "is the cute guy still there?" *squeals*
great mind thinks alike uh.

went over to bungeejump area. i seriously think i wont ever want to go up there.
or unless if im drunk and high and think that i can fly

took a night rider home. i seriously think that taking a night rider is cool!
it's like little people on the bus, streets dim and dark. best time for a good bus ride.
halfway through, kendrick called. wanted to go over for a drink&decided not to. tired& drinking will make you feel even worse.

i think im falling sick man ):
& people wear masks when they are sick nowadays. or is it that they are not sick but scared to catch the flu bug.
i dont wanna wear a mask!

shit man. im gotta have phobia of that britney's perfume.
it seems to be lingering. hate it.

work again. stupid slut bitch hs had to remain me that my work starts in a few hours time.

SIGH

weekend ftw (:

2009-07-11T03:32:00.003+08:00

finally the weekends are here & we're delighted to find out that we've got no work on Saturday. Hooray! Sleep in thanks :D

time actually passed quite fast at work, staring at the comp. though it's kinda dreadful that i've to think that it's another 14 weeks more. if i play too much, i will refuse to go to work. so i better be a good workaholic for the next 14 weeks.

& who say designing was easy T_T
it's easy with inspiration. but it's hard to put that inspiration into actions. & that stress worrying that clients won't be pleased with the design. i think i came up with crappy ones. & kinda depressed over that. I CANT FREAKING DESIGN CORPORATE WEBSITES. they are so boring. boring until i dont even know how to make it look interesting. so actually my designing skills are just that limited. depressing to realise that as well D:

meet up with the mates for dinner at the central (takashimaya). we should meet up every friday so that we will not lost touch during sip (:
finally met up with xiaohuihui&yiling after so long. slacked at xin wang & gloria. i missed the good old days at xinwang@pasir ris.

read this article oh yahoo!sg

S.H.E.'s Ella contemplated suicide

Reports on her prima donna attitude put Ella in depression three years ago and she revealed to have contemplated suicide.

The S.H.E member recapped one incident in their newly published pictorial book, "I was crying and driving at high speed on the expressway and in my mind, and I imagined papers carrying my death on their cover pages."

She also revealed to have given serious thoughts to her will, in which she would like her elder sister to sell her house in Taipei and split the money among their family members in Pingtung.

The girl group's trip to India opened up her mind and helped clear up the negative thoughts.

it's just sick to see artistes cooking up stories or making a mountain out of a molehill. though, this is a part of their job.

maybe the attached pic to this article seemed wrong. it makes me feel that it's all hypocrisy.
well, thoughts of dying & will is nothing serious? i mean most of us will think about death at times i guess?

ah well. just random thoughts. ok time for bed. night!
& thanks to michelle (:
nice name ar, happy :D

A little update

2009-07-07T22:59:00.002+08:00

i wonder why is my internet so laggy. let alone mention this comp of mine. everything lags real badly recently. im getting disconnected to the virtual world real soon if this continues.

first day of work yesterday. & yes, late on the first day of work. my bad D: sorry olivia!

people there were kinda nice. cosy & comfy office. time passed quite fast i guess. maybe because both of us are sharing a table and talking away 80% of the time. WHO SAID HTML WAS EASY T_T it's as complicating as php or flex. D: we belittled it already.

we spent our whole day today just creating a web form using html. & it's like 2 person doing 1 form -_- yet at the end of the day we still produced nothing. & there you must be thinking '2 dumb asses. how hard is it to create a web form using html?!" try creating without using tables (cause we were forbid to use it D: im so crippled without it) & all changes in fonts colours, alignment have to be done in CSS. not even the break code was allow.

i wonder what are we going to do for the whole of tomorrow ):

omg i rather go to schoooooool. at least i still have the time for editing pictures for blogging, or spending time facebooking. now it's like come home must sleep, else will feel tired the next day. like walking robot -_-

yesterday night was a sleepless one. because i was waiting for this comp to start up. fell asleep at 12 woke up at 1 plus and it's still stuck at that grey apple, attempting to start up. GG. had problem reformatting initially too. but luckily resolved it. though my reformat disc 2 is spoiled, resulting in no garageband, imoviehd & iweb D: handicapped macbook.

& the music is stopping every now and then. freaking lag. i want a snow leopard!

oh & safari4 & itunes8 is love. so cool!

gotta reload my datas in. download&install applications. & change the icons. many things to do! but im tired alr D:

记录人生

2009-07-01T20:26:00.002+08:00

this will be what i will do from now on. life is short D:

went to shokudo on monday cause i was craving for mushroom pasta.

Michelle was taking snapshot of her eyecandy secretly /giggle

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random pics.

accidentally injured myself. such a small wound but blood blood blood. brings thrill :D

my curent addiction (: dinner for last night. just cooked some again tonight.

bought a pack of rice cracker from daiso. rice cracker is my love 8D but check this one out

freaking salty can. it's not chao ta but one big patch of soysauce D:

so freaking full now. but there's a big bowl of mapo tofu waiting for me t.t

bitten by the sleeping bug

2009-06-27T00:27:00.004+08:00

omg. after dinner i just sleep and sleep in my parents' room until almost 12, when my dad 'chased' me out of the room cause he wants to sleep sleep until damn shiok ok.

im still feeling sleepy now.

the bad side of it. im feeling freaking bloated/full right now.

the food didn't get digested. start exercising sooooooon

i've been having weird dreams recently. & they are scaring me so much.

to see a diamond bird, a dog bigger than me and just now while having a little nap, i dreamt that i finally shed some weight, almost reduced to bone. is that like a good thing? maybe it would have been a nice dream if not for my arms that is reduced into this ...

thin on from the top. thick from the side

memory's damn bad recently. went to fairprice yesterday to buy the ingredients for mapo tofu & suddenly remember that i'm craving for tangyuan. but within a few sec, i find myself walking around the store, looking and trying to remember hard what did I wanted to buy. remember finally but they only have it in red bean. sigh

look at my mapo tofu! i think it's damn nice. im craving for more. it's not spicy but indeed damn 麻

chanced upon a blog today. the girl was somewhat pretty i guess. but her boyfriend totally looks like her dad, with fats all over and a big beer belly. i mean, he is over 40 for sure. perhaps 50? imagine having someone that resemble your dad as a boyfriend. le sigh.

michael jackson passed away last night. it's like a big hooha. ok it should be, since he is that popular. but i just got amazed by the number of people who posted in facebook about that. maybe i was never a fan of his. uhm, did i even listened to his songs before?

see this! old time favourite snack :D

it's freaking salty. how can it be a healthy choice ... :|

Hello World!

2009-06-23T23:32:00.002+08:00

Daddy's day last Sunday. Woke up early in the morning & went out.

Heh check out this nostalgic sweet. mine's in orange wrapper.

went to marina barrage & farmway at yeochukang.

marinabarrage was quite a disappointment. seriously. don't go unless you have nothing better to do. though part of the disappointment came from the scorching sun. there's nothing there & the scenery isn't that great i would say.

then we went to the farmway! my favourite kind of stuffs. the passionfruit icepop was yummilicious. damn shiok.

at the farmway, you can rent bicycles etc, there are various mini stalls there selling different kind of food and there's resort for rental. it's a great getaway from the buzzing city. there's electical bike for rental as well. the one i ride around with lindy at the temple in Cambodia.

In Cambodia, it's US2 for the whole day, but it cost $13 per hour here in Singapore ):

check out the purple leaves! so cool :|

went to have dinner after that. blackpeppercrab! & i suddenly realised daddy is still doing the cracking/peeling of crab shells for us. sigh man. need to grow up ):

back to school yesterday for submission of itpm report & tain test. freak. i totally forgot how to do accounts. where income & expenses should be.

went to airport for popeyes after that with olivia&michelle. &we totally stalk the japanese&koreans in front of koreanair & jal row. must be our lucky day. first came a bunch of korean students and then another bunch of japanese (maybe they are koreans too..) students. both consists of only guys. o_o then we went on to stalk the korean air's stewardess.

i know we are like damn free. & indeed we are quite free. no more projects. hooray! ((:

woke up today at 12. had breakfast. went back to sleep at 2. then woke up again at 4.30 and went back to sleep at 6 and i'm still feeling quite sleepy now. i really cannot sleep at 5am anymore D:

the last night

2009-06-19T00:23:00.002+08:00

the closer we get to know a person, the more flaws we discover.

yet if we don't get closer to a person, how to gain a true friend?

to accept the flaws, is what that will bring the relationship closer

sometimes, is it that we're being hypocrite; for e.g. if we really do not like something but we are afraid to voice out our opinion. we will give replies like, "it's fine" or "not bad"

that when we face people who are straightforward and voice their opinion out, we will 'outcast' that person and wonder why is he/she like that. can't he/she be a little tactful or humble?

where does the fault lies?

----------------------------------------------

zouk yesterday with mich, lindy, boon, tonglin, jazz & bryan.

kinda sian&tired though. partly because i went for a round of jogging, badminton & squash in the noon with jazz&tonglin. my arms are aching now. in fact, my whole body is bloody aching. old liao manzsxzs.

for the first time i felt myself so drunk but yet not to the extent of puking. unlike michelle!

maybe. not more club for me. starting to not like it anymore.

its like same old routine. drink. get drunk. dance. home. body aching like siao.

no man. i shall start to lead a healthy lifestyle.

no more to alcohol.

i wanna go bangkok! i wanna go macau too! ):

no more holidays. sigh

ftt tmr. i haven bloody started studying. i have no intention of taking the test tmr cause im freaking tired now. sucks man.

photos!

08062009

check out jazz the 'badman'

&michelle the catwoman. lol. a photo specially dedicated to olivia. haha!

im loving my samsung omnia! takes good night shots for a phone. even better than my nikon D:

& it's convenient.

mambo jumbo 17062009

me & lindy! my 'lesbian clubbing partner' lol

totally gone D:

me&tonglin

me&jazz. he looks like 蜡笔小新 here. lol

another scandal 8D

jazz's making out with michelle & we caught it on the cammie. HAHA

what a sweet couple :D

& boon's trying to take advantage of the drunkard

wa i really dont feel like going for ftt already. ok tada! (:

coffee is keeping me awake

2009-06-17T03:42:00.004+08:00

a cup of ice blended coffee in the day was a bad bad choice.

3.40am, i'm still wide awake.

i was never a fan of coffee. geez

until now then i realised that maksim is so cute looking :D

his pieces - exodus, croatian rhapsody and flight of the bumble bee are so so nice!

running, squash and badminton in school later. muahaha. it's good to workout and get all sweaty.

these few days have been reading up a lot on plastic surgery. & checking out the surgeons.

plastic surgery at korea seems kinda cool. i wanna get my damn eyelids done! perhaps vit C jab to go with it. i can't wait to graduate so that all will be made possible :D

zouk @ night!

almost dead blog

2009-06-13T04:02:00.002+08:00

though it's holiday but i'm more engross with stuffs like gaming.

knight of cygnus is out! gotta try it out. back to days of mapling again. this time with olivia. lol

but things get pretty boring after some time ):

one week is gone. left another week of holidays.

nothing happening recently.

ran & played badminton on monday. it felt damn shiok to exercise. as well as the aftermath of bodyache D: sang k & went to ikea for dinner

to selig's house on wednesday. cherie is so cute! like fluffy fluffy. looks like a mat.

the fun part was poking fun at olivia, michelle & jazz /giggle

a pity that meetup with the airport peeps were cancelled. the flu virus is spreading ):

thurs&fri for gaming.

tmr going to cousin's house warming.

& sunday either to m'sia or olivia's church.

damn, my post is becoming my schedule.

ftt next friday. pray that i'll pass.

Never felt that relieved before

2009-06-06T00:03:00.002+08:00

I can't wait to scream that school is over, finally over! except for the fact that there's submission for itpm and presentation&test for tain at week 10.

Other than that, I'm left with major project and attachment before school is really over :D

Weeks ago, days ago I was still stressing like some shit over DBMM. For the fact that I don't understand a single thing about flex. & my awesome partner has the same characteristics, in terms of studies, as me. LOL. & the group consist of me & oliver only! dead crap shit. 12pm was presentation but 11.50am we were both still at home doing last minute work! i think we started only like 2 days before submission. sigh. how are we ever going to survive major project. but only last minute works for us.

holiday is finally here & i finally have more time to do my own stuffs such as gaming.

& zouk next wednesday! :D

im going to dedicate this holiday to exercising as well.

i need a short getaway from Singapore! it's too stress.

random

2009-06-02T23:34:00.004+08:00

found this pic randomly.

i superlove the expression can.

like =_= why are you taking my picture

damn funny
& i've been doing coding for the whole day. for the first in my lifetime. like wow.

though im supposed to have this attitude for my previous projects.

but i think i did it wrongly

so im too lazy to continue now D:

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=100655366013&ref=share

I think that this video is freaking funny.

shot shot bam dead.

0701991b@student.tp.edu.sg says: (11:07:43 PM)

then i was like laughing and holding my stomach

0701991b@student.tp.edu.sg says: (11:07:43 PM)

hahaha

0701991b@student.tp.edu.sg says: (11:07:45 PM)

painful

Panic Button Alert

2009-05-31T23:22:00.003+08:00

2 assignments, 1 test next week.

Good luck man D:

I'm on the verge of going berserk x_x

imagine me waking at 8am every morning, just because of the constant reminder from myself that dbmm is not done.

& i freaking dream about it almost every night. whether it's mysql or mr rick toh's face.

le sigh.

i finally did the database. & now i dont know how to connect. good job man T_T

STRESSSSSSS LA

2009-05-27T00:19:00.002+08:00

Yes I emphasize once again.

When dbmm is due on Friday & nice one, after creating layouts over and over again.

I decided to do a new one. That is equivalent to having nothing done at all

Omgzsxzxzsxs I'm forcing myself to do lab tutorials now to understand.

& I'm stuck at component cos my mind isnt working at all.

I still have 2 tutorials to complete. I haven create database.

God bless me.

On a lighter note. I still have 3 days. I believe a simple application should not take 3 days.

Ok lying to myself but still. I believe we can do it, for we are the last minute-r.

& omg i passed itpm when I went clubbing the night before & didn't study for it until the last minute.

this shows how miracles exist. So please let a running application be completed on Friday.

Amen.

feels damn pampered today :D

2009-05-24T21:27:00.003+08:00

so delighted today!

mummy woke me up early in the morning & dragged me out of the house.

since i've rotted at home for like 2 days already. i think i need some fresh air.

muahaha. i got a few items off my wishlist :D happy happy.

step on leggings & purple kappa shoes.

then we went to suntec where there's the asiasoft exhibition and starhub roadshow.

now i have cable tv at home! can watch channel V & all the taiwan channels :D

& unexpectedly I got myself a red omnia. i was just jokingly telling mummy to get me that & didn't expect that daddy allow me to change.

now i have a korean-like phone & im gonna gmask it to make it look like the anycall series :D

best of all, starhub has this instant lucky dip which I got for myself a PSP Slim :D:D

can you sense my excitement? :D

superlove my parents ♥

MY COMP IS FREAKING LAGGY ):

2009-05-23T14:11:00.004+08:00

Im supposed to start on flex but i got stuck & best of all. I've not yet done with the database. Good job man D:

Went for a run yesterday & came back with a major headache

I think I'm so facebook siao nowadays.

Spam spam spam. i think she almost went insane uh. LOL

to be happy or sad?

2009-05-22T12:07:00.002+08:00

olivia& i secured internship place at a webdesign company in shenton way. hurray :D

but then i realised our pay is equivalent to $2.50 per hour, $20 per day. so pathetic. & there's work on saturday as well. on a lighter note, it's only 16 saturdays to clear D: Sigh man. Better than in house internship

went funan mall yesterday with olivia, jazz&selig to collect his macbook.

my macbook is dying on me sooooooon D: it's getting laggy-er than ever.

i need a new macbook!

why do my life seems so boring.

& im getting slower than ever as well.

gotta work on flex D:

byebye

fly you to the moon!

2009-05-15T23:33:00.003+08:00

someone said, if you're close to a person for a very long time you'll start to wonder what is it like to be together or if you liked the person.

makes sense. cause eventually you will wonder where this path will takes you to.

& all things will come to a halt.

woke up freaking early this morning for interview tgt with olivia.

luckily the lady was nice! shenton way got lau pa sat. i like! i hope we'll get that job :D

another interview tomorrow at 11am.

looks like being a designer isn't that bad afterall. im referring to the dress code x_x

flex 3 is killing me.

it's that hard to even make a navigation bar. pfft.

so nice! new groove in my fav-ed song!

expectations

2009-05-15T01:47:00.002+08:00

Often, we set an expectation, in fact high expectations, for our eye candy. If he/she does not meets that criteria, he/she is not cute enough. But we will end up finding our other half far from what it's expected. Fantasy VS Reality. Haha

Saw a number of "mismatched" couples these few days. Why is it that the first thing that came to our mind was "wtf is wrong with his eyes or wtf is wrong with her brain"? When will human ever learn to stop judgement & prejudice. Each and every of us have a basic criteria to accept another person. Just that others' criteria are much different from ours.

So tired. & for the first time I find myself not doing last minute work. Is that amazing?

Friday is an off day for school. but gotta go for an interview in the morning with olivia. Just pray we'll both get in the same company. & gotta start doing on flex in the noon. damn you flex D: cant you be a little friendlier and let me get to know you more.

MP groupings formed. Me, Olivia& Boon = 3 slackers.

Good luck to major project. HAHA.

96 QNS

2009-05-13T02:13:00.002+08:00

001. Name: Shimin
002. Nickname(s): sm, sicko (wow this is a bit wrong)
003. Age: 19
004. Horoscope: Tauras
005. M/F: F
006. Elementary School: Park View Primary School
007. Middle School: Hai Sing Catholic School
008. High School: Temasek Polytechnic
009. College: no more please
010. Hair Color: brown
011. Hair Length: short
012. Loud/ Quiet: more to the quiet side
013. Phone/Camera: Phone
014. Health Freak?: i think i am. i eat all the old people's food x.x
015. Drink/Smoke: occasionally drink though i have phobia of the alcohol taste x.x
016. Do you have a crush on someone? nope
017. Eat/Drink: eat!
018. Piercing: 5
019. Tattoos: soon i guess. HAHA
020. Social/Anti-social: neither sociable nor anti-social
021. Lefty/Righty: Righty

Firsts
022. First Piercing: 14?
023. First Relationship: when I was 15
024. First Best Friend: shihan? from kindergarten if that counts
025. First Award: primary school
026. First Kiss: le sigh
027. First Pet: le sigh
028. First Big Vacation: back to malaysia?
029. First Love-at-first-sight: none
030. First Big Birthday: 1 year old?
031. First Surgery: none
032. First Sport: errr?

Either or...
033. Orange/Apple Juice: apple juice
034. Rock/Rap: rock
035. Country/Screamo: country
036. NSYNC/BSB: neither
037. Britney Spears/Christina Aquilera: Britney Spears
038. Day/Night: Night
039. Sun/Moon: Moon
040. TV/Internet: internet
041. Playstation/Xbox: can i have wii instead?
042. Kiss/Hug: Hug
043. Iguana/Turtle: Turtle
044. Spider/Bee: err neither
045. Fall/Spring: Spring
046. Limewire/Itunes: Itunes
047. Soccer/Baseball: baseball

Currents
048. NBA Game: Nope
049. Drinking: nothing
050. Excitement Level: sleepy
051. I'm about to: Sleep
052. Listening to: 러브 119 feat. MC Mong (so nice!)
053. Plan for Today: slack
054. Waiting for: school to finish
055. Energy Level: neutral
056. Thinking of someone: nope

Time
057. Kids: none
058. Marriage: Single
059. No. of kids: None
060. Names: Mireille!
061. Childhood Dream Job: teacher, designer, cashier (HAHA cashier x.x)
062. Careers in mind: a lot to be listed
063. Mellow/Wild: mellow
064. Something you would never try: to eat butterflies. gross

Preferences
065. Lips/Eyes: eyes
066. Romantic/Humorous: humorous
067. Short/Tall: tall and very tall. HAHA
068. Protective/Caring: caring
069. Romantic/ Spontaneous: spontaneous
070. Nice Stomach/Arms: arms
071. Sensitive/Loud: sensitive
072. Hook-up/Relationship: relationship
073. Trouble-maker/Hesitant: neither
074. Muscular/Normal: normal. muscular is disgusting

Have you ever...
075. Kissed a stranger: maybe
076. Broken a bone: nope
077. Lost glasses/contacts: nope
078. Ran away from home: nope
079. Held a weapon for self-defense: yes. but too bad i had no chance to stab someone yet
080. Killed Somebody: i will devise a plan so that the police cant catch me. HAHAHA
081. Broken someone's heart: i hope not
082. Had your heart broken: nope
083. Been arrested: nope
084. Cried when someone died: yep
085. Liked a friend more than a friend: not really

Do you believe in...
086. Yourself: yes i do
087. MIracles: this is sacred. haha
088. Love at first sight: nope. bullshit
089. Heaven: maybe
090. Santa Claus: nope
091. Tooth Fairy: huh?
092. Kiss on the first date: NOPE
093. Angels: i hope there are
094. 1 person you wanna be with right now: no one
095. Happy with life: more than happy
096. Do you believe in God: not really

manarizo&kizuiro <3

2009-05-10T13:28:00.002+08:00

heh. see this!

manarizo&kizuiro's wedding.

olivia& I are officially husband&wife in audition.

i think we are damn bored. but we managed to kill time on friday&saturday!

poor kizuiro is only left with hair :O
work today D:
report report report. please let me be more organized today & not get distracted by games D:
gonna send in resume for SIP. i hope cleo takes me in D:

19 ALREADY!

2009-05-08T02:06:00.005+08:00

but oh well, 19 is fav-ed number so it's great! :D
though this year birthday doesn't feels like birthday for some reasons. weird. is this a sign of going 20?

superlove C171 ♥♥♥

walked to the open hall area. the sun was scorching hot. & by the time i reached the cake it was badly melted & the candles melted too except for one. haha. oh! as people say, it's inauspicious to blow out 19 candles. so this might be fate :D

they made a fool out of me by blindfolding me & asking me to go around in circles before smudging a small piece of the cake on my face.

& omg! jazz&peisheng danced the 台客舞！ I think 台客舞 is damn nice just that i have no talents in dancing. that was super lovely anyway :D

THANKYOUGUYSSOMUCH! ♥

went over to butterfactory. i thought i lost my I/C again! Phew lucky never else I can really just stay at starbucks. Had a drink & headed to zouk instead. butterfactory seems boring. perhaps because it's not an enclosed area.

mambojambonight :D super high.

someone stepped on my feet D: got a big patch of blue black now D: curse you, whoever who stepped on my feet.

me&darling xiaohuihui ❥

super high~!

read this!

시민 says: (3:37:11 PM)hahahaha how do you consider a club girl

시민 says: (3:37:17 PM)am i like one.

余 - KendricK says: (3:37:27 PM)u are totally out of the league man

余 - KendricK says: (3:37:39 PM)i think they must be abit bitchy!

시민 says: (3:37:39 PM)my friends think im like those party party de lor (referring to C171!!!)

余 - KendricK says: (3:37:49 PM)u party?

余 - KendricK says: (3:37:51 PM)omg

余 - KendricK says: (3:37:56 PM)my toes are giggling liaoz

余 - KendricK says: (3:37:57 PM)hahahaha

余 - KendricK says: (3:38:02 PM)omg

余 - KendricK says: (3:38:08 PM)then ur friends see me

余 - KendricK says: (3:38:12 PM)i become club monster ah?

so people seeeeeee. im not a party animal as you all thought D:

♥mummy too. big angpow this year :D

went home to catch a nap for about an hour before heading to school. super duper tired. age is catching up on me! D:

played audition with olivia&angela at night.

games like that are meant to be played with rl friends i realised. that's the fun of it.

jazz's gonna play it soon too! hahaha. we are getting more&more people to play :|

ok im tired. bye! & thanks to all for the lovely wishes

random of the day

2009-05-05T01:37:00.004+08:00

got super bored & decided to read blogs & got linked to this!

is this for real o.o

a lot of things to get

2009-05-05T00:09:00.004+08:00

& a lot of things to do. projects are starting to pile up and yet im not starting on any. it's getting me a little stress that i decide it would be good if i have my monday off. and so i did.

best of all. dbmm grouping not formed yet proposal is to be submitted this thursday. god bless.

test on wed and thurs. jesus holy. i think this week's gonna be a hard one.

depression's back. but i guess i'll brush it off. i ought to be happy this week at least, don't i?

can't wait to get my mary jane's pump from charles&keith. it's in dark purple! superloved. i hope they still have it :D

i realised i tend to have ~~fetish~~ ok not exactly fetish but attracted to guys with black frame specs. i think they looked super smart in it. but well, not all. some looks like geek though.

like that :D

addicted to davichi's new album. do listen! :D

( at sidebar :)

random of the day

2009-05-02T22:53:00.003+08:00

life is vulnerable

2009-05-02T22:12:00.002+08:00

yes it is. & it's making me vulnerable too D:

neighbour-next-door passed away on tuesday. last tuesday was the suicide case upstairs.

how can i not be scared and yet worried at the same time D:

his kids are only 19 & 17 this year and it's pretty much sad to be losing your dad at a young age.

it kinda got me a little depressed.

went with olivia to town yesterday for her haircut. after that went to meet up with trish since she's so coincidentally at town too before heading to meet wen at tamp. played mahjong! after so long. & yay. luckily i didn't lose, instead won 12 bucks. my beginner's luck is back i hope. after not playing for so long. haha. poor lumchwee, didn't even win a round of one tai. luck will get better the next time (:

& freak. i made an impulse decision to cut my hair today. wanted to trim & cut layer only but ended up having my hair short. I DONT KNOW WHAT THE STYLIST WAS DOING D: there was this strip of my hair on the right that was long to create the impression that both side looks equal (from previous haircut) and once u snip it off, it will look really short & imbalance. and yea so that was the result. and i had to cut the other side as short to make it balance back. it was not that bad just that here i am, intending to grow my hair long & there i am snipping it away and away, again and again. btw, the stylist was cute :D

as michelle has said, there'll always be hair extensions.

true enough, i can go for hair extensions again D:

hopefully hair will be long by next year D:

school is so interesting

2009-04-30T15:25:00.002+08:00

or rather facebook is so interesting. we pay school fees, we come to school early in the morning just to facebook. because we are left on our own to do our work & that we will never do it. not like we prefer the teacher to teach as well, as we will ponder when will she/he end?

i've never fallen asleep during poly. unlike secondary when i always choose to sleep during shuen's lesson and unknowingly fall asleep during poa lesson's because the teacher's voice seems to be calling you to bed.

but these 2 days i just fell asleep in class. is it that i'm too tired or that lessons are too boring.

lessons at 9am are really pricey. cause daddy gotta go to work early nowadays and i gotta catch the bus to school, which means waking up earlier. but i often end up feeding money to cabs. SIGH

please let school ends soon

played first match of dota with olivia, stupidewei& his friends yesterday night. i'm still pretty noob in the game D: keep feeding

you can add me in garena - mireillex :D

im going back to sleep. good day people!

lovely

2009-04-28T01:06:00.002+08:00

monday is always a dreadful day. went out of the house at 8:50am when lessons start at 9. wanted to take a cab but there are people waiting at both sides of the road. calling a cab is not feasible because $3 plus $4 (call cab) plus peak hour surcharge is really not worth it for mr sankara's lesson. took a bus. reached at 9:15am. i think im damn pro

i actually paid a little attention to his lessons for the first time. & i did my itpm for the first time as well. woah im a changed person :D

played audition in project room while waiting for jazz. michelle's got retarded fingers, seriously! & jazz is a genius. lame game. but good enough to kill time

decided last minute to dine at popeyes. & freak. they were so freaking funny that my stomach hurt damn badly. how can i not love my classmates :) then we talked about haunted stories. but a cozy atmosphere like airport makes it less scary. olivia was so damn funny! walking home alone is indeed getting scarier as a suicide case just took place and my house is so deep inside D: i blast my mp3.

im gonna ask olivia to teach me dota so that i can have more things to do on friday! :D

kind of sad

2009-04-27T01:30:00.002+08:00

that's what i am feeling right now.

i'm feeling sad for the teenagers (am i still considered one?). i meant those in secondary school and still way far to be deem mature

right now, just thinking of my parents will bring me to tears. the reason to why tears can't stop for the whole day. cause till now then i realised i can never love them enough. and i'm afraid for the day that they will not be with me. everyday and every hour spent with them is not enough.

i used to shout at my dad saying i hate him too. i used to dislike my mum like some crap. i thought she was so freaking annoying and can't stop nagging for goodness sake. even though she is still constantly doing that to my brother and i still find it annoying but now i know it's all for a good cause. wishing for the nagging to cease? wait till one day when it really happens then we will yearn for it. why do people always learn how to treasure only when they lose it? i think those people are pathetic losers.

my dad and i. we don't talk to each other. as in maintain a conversation.

my mum and i. i dont express my feelings in front of her. in fact, them.

i really really love my parents. i want to give them the best if i could in the future. sometimes i wish i could just give them a hug or let them know how i feel. but it's just so hard

my brother and i. we quarreled and fight a lot. he pisses the shit out of me. he's causing me to go hysterical. he's causing me to be abnormal. does he even know it's hurting me to see him hurting our parents? as much as i dislike him. dislike him for being so unreasonable. i can't bring myself to hate him. i still love my brother as well. just hope that he will learn to grow up.

it's just sad to see people blaming their parents for every single thing. how hurtful will their parents feel if they ever learn to know? maybe i'm feeling sad for their parents. doing so much for your kids but look. what do you get in return? yet you can't bring yourself to ignore them cause they are your flesh and blood.

till one day when your parents are gone then you regret the things that you've said?

it'll be too late. life is short.

i just hope whoever that reads this post will learn to appreciate the people around us before they are gone (:

badbaday

2009-04-26T23:34:00.003+08:00

this morning started off really badly. i wonder how much more of this crap that i can take anymore. i went hysterical, unable to control myself once again. i'm sick of all these shit

went out. & gave black face to almost everyone. it was an extremely hot day. people carried umbrellas. and two fuckers had to knock their fucking umbrella onto my head. & not to forget this bitch that stepped on my slipper. fuck you peoooooople. i swear im in my worst mood today. i just diao everyone that offended me today. GRRR

went to simlim square cos brother's psp battery & charger spoilt. this stupid shop is charging us $130 for both. please. you think i'm an idiot in all these? he wanted to recommend us a pirated battery ($65). so it will spoil everything & we will go back to you for repair and you can earn another lump sum again? i stared at him expressionlessly, "pirated batt will spoil the psp" & he continued to crap. he is like persuading my mum to get it from him, saying dont go to other people cause they will sell us the fake stuffs. WHO'S THE CHEATER HERE, YOU %%*@*#&#&^@

I tried to pull them out of the shop by saying I want to buy stuffs upstair. That idiot still dare to ask what I am looking for. Computer stuffs? I stared at him again, with what-i-am-going-to-look-at-is-none-of-your-fucking-business's face and I think he got quite stunned and just remained quiet. in the end we got it from a shop at the second floor for $80 tgt with free crystal casing, screen protector and ds stylus.

I don't know what came over me today. It's like you offend me today you die die die. I don't care if you are chao ah beng or what. I KILL YOU & EAT YOU UP THEN YOU KNOW. GRRR

im not going to remain silent. im not going to tolerate all these shit. try offending me and i think i'll just blow up next second & YOU DIE

i feel like reporting that shop to case trust. you dared my parents to call up case trust the previous time. NOW I WILL DO IT. for the reason that you are even selling your things much more expensive than SONY.

Enough of rantings & overused of vulgarities. I need a space to breathe.

Olivia & I are officially a loving couple in Audition. LOL

gotta thank jazz for the use of ID (:

Boys before flower is gonna air at channel U in may. can't wait though i've alr finished the drama. it's gonna be weird hearing them in chinese. especially when the names alone sounds weird in chinese. 丝草，俊表，智厚, 易正 & blah blahs

YOU SUCK

2009-04-24T00:41:00.002+08:00

Managed to change my timetable. Yayness no school on Friday anymore! :D

But the class was bad though. Bad environment D: Maybe because we are the only 2 from IMI?

Freaking tired. Missed DBMM today. Well I woke, & decided it'll be pretty useless if I attend so I should just go back to bed.

Know what. There's a suicide case upstairs D: Apparently the man slit his neck? The body got down by the lift. Damnit. I'll be freaking scared if I'm going home after 12 D: I'm going home early from now on.

Airfare is cheapppp now. But I've got no holidays. It sucks.

But discussing about trip was fun. Yes. I wish we could just fly to Taiwan tomorrow.

Ice, ice & more ice!

I think Olivia&me are pretty boliao. We're gonna play Auditionsea. She's a 6 chancer! D: Old schoooooool.

Going out with Xiaohuihui tomorrow! Freaking long nv see her D:

20 hours

2009-04-18T20:28:00.002+08:00

monday: 2 hours

tuesday: 3 hours

wednesday: 6 hours

thursday: 6 hours

friday: 3 hours

that is, if you exclude 4 hours of lectures.

school is starting on coming monday :(

i'm still sore about not having my friday off, unlike rebecca& rest's timetable.

luckily crazy partner, michelle and slacking partner olivia is in the same class with me still :D

last 8 weeks of TP's lesson. is that a happy or sad thing?

i do hope i get an internship job. i don't want to get stuck in school :(

having 2nd thoughts about taking FTT. cause i think i'll fail for sure D:

& i don't want to press the bloody submit button and it says that i FAILED

but then again, i want to drive! i suck at theory. perhaps practical too, since i can't multitask

last day of holidays D:

:D

2009-04-14T23:40:00.002+08:00

life has been pretty happening recently.

after the cambodia trip, daddy made an impromptu decision to go to KL on friday.

i woke up pretty late that day, and my mum ask me to prepare and pack some clothes :D

i like surprises.

pretty bad jam at tuas (for 3 going 4 hours my god!). we left the house around 2.30pm. we reached KL around 10pm? & then daddy made another impromptu decision to go up to Genting(there goes my what-i-thought-it-would-be-a-shopping-trip). we reached first world hotel to realise that there was no available rooms at all the hotels. damn. even cousin's vip card couldn't book a room. how bad was that. but luckily aunty&cousins were there too. so we bunked in with them. 10 person sharing a room :( i didn't catch a wink at all. but i was pretty excited in the morning. i always like to have buffet breakfast at genting! 8D i seldom eat breakfast, and even if i do, it'll be in a rush so im pretty excited for a rich breakfast.

went to theme park after that. god. i think the last time i visited genting was like 5 years ago?

luckily it wasn't that freezing cold cause all i brought was shorts! but i had jacket :D

played the 360 degree flying coaster. damn. i freaking regretted when the thing started to move. i was like screaming all the way as if there's no tomorrow. i swear i almost cried.

i had a pretty weak heart that day.

impromptu trip ended really bad. want to go to KL for some shopping afterwards. yes. we saw that twin tower. so near yet so far. and all daddy have to do is to make a wrong turn. we were on the wrong road don't know to where and there's no frigging Uturn. Spent more than an hour with an empty stomach looking for KL, some signs of twin tower and food! Malaysia road is really bad bad.

Went to Sentosa with iminds cambodia yesterday. pretty fun :D

the only dreadful thing was the salty-until-it-cannot-get-any-saltier-water. i wonder how many people peed in there? thought Sentosa was suppose to be a beautiful beach or some sort?

im so tired today. finally went to Tampines one!

& my memory is deteriorating. im getting a bit worried

10weeks of school & sip is gonna start. i hope i'll get a good company *pray*

poly is getting more&more fun.

i♥my class people& all new people i've met

im so worried about people getting wrong impression about me that im a party animal :(

i've only been to club twice& perhaps not going anymore

i don't like allthatkindathings. life is about trying out. but not becoming a habit (:

was telling michelle&jane that i think it's kinda logical.

life is not about love. don't find for the sake of finding one.

when going out with someone is not a chore. he's the one.

apparently, you need fate&time

i need to do the reportttttttttt :(

thanks for that

2009-04-13T01:04:00.002+08:00

Just when I learn to trust people when I think that they are being serious, so as to avoid the past mistakes I've made, the regrets I've faced, I realised I might be wrong.

To believe or trust in others at the appropriate time is showing respect to the person.

Apparently, you don't deserve that.

Because I won't want people to think that I'm joking when I'm serious, so I changed my mindset.

And thanks to you.

I'm back to square one.

GodamnTrue.ImmaFierceBitch

2009-04-07T02:27:00.002+08:00

Ignore the title 8D

My facebook is flooded with pictures from cambodia!

& i promise to blog soon about this amazing trip :D

Shimin completed the quiz "Which crazy bitch are you?" with the result Sinead O'Connor.

You are one fierce bitch. You are very independent and will take no bullshit from anyone but your personality is actually sort of quiet and shy. (how can i possibly disagree with this?) You are a natural beauty and you are very comfortable with your feminity. You don't feel the need to overdo it or go out of your way to fuss over your looks. You don't want to distract people from what you stand for and the talents you possess. You are very idealistic and will go to any extremes to stand up for what you believe in even if it creates controversy and people don't understand. Relationships can be hard for you sometimes because men feel threatened by you but time again they come running to you and realize that you are actually very sweet and motherly....until they cross you.

still cannot adapt back to life here. sucks.

为什么外头的天空总是比较蓝？

SIGHLA

2009-04-06T18:11:00.002+08:00

Before going to Cambodia, I was so not looking forward to it.

After coming back from Cambodia, I'm so missing it now.

Best part of it, to cut connections from the world, from all troubles & problems.

Can I extend my stay for another week?

Hotel at SiemReap was shiokness :)

Swimming during the day & night. Heh

SO NOW IM SICK LOR :(

can i say i'm disappointed?

it clearly shows everything.

Bon Voyage

2009-03-28T23:16:00.003+08:00

daddy & mummy thought my flight was tomorrow night instead!

so daddy went to batam to play golf.

no one to send me to the airport tonight :(

& olivia is not going!

im sad you know! :(

but get well soon girl :D

let's hope i'll make it back here. LOL

Out of the norm

2009-03-26T07:37:00.002+08:00

While my brother is heading to school & my parents heading for breakfasts.

I'm heading home to catch my beauty sleep.

When everyone's day barely started, I just ended mine.

No more nights out this week I guess. I need to be a little healthy.

Know what? I actually missed waking up in the wee hours for school (referring to sec sch). It's good to be a secondary school student :(

often, the one who is there is not the one you are looking for

yet the one you are looking for is not there

health freak

2009-03-22T00:02:00.003+08:00

coping myself up at home during the boring holidays = health freak

almond soya milk in the morning everyday, raw celery for lunch (i can't believe i ate it raw. though i like the smell of it. kind of nice i guess)

know what? i'm so into supplements nowadays. i can't believe i actually am into this kind of things cause i used to think that people who take vitamins(or supplements) are stupid. need so much vitamins for what. zzz
i just bought a somewhat vitamin C supplement from sato & i'm gonna get their C10 & vitamin B. i will buy more vitamin C tablets too 8D
i think i will overdose of supplements.
maybe i should get some iron tablets too. so that i won't risk getting rejected as a donor. blood bank is damn far you know. & i don't trust mobile blood bank too.

& i just ate raw tomato.

in order to be healthy, i have to psycho myself to think that the food are really nice. just like how i think eating raw tomato is ... not that nice. i prefer them boiled and soft ;D

2 nice quotes i got from watching shows.

"all along I have been moving along, but not moving on" - the leap years
"words should not be hurtful. use it to say i love you" - perfect cut 2

:)

>:-(

2009-03-19T18:00:00.002+08:00

dislike people who are like that.

where are the laughters?

i lost it.

10 more days (:

disappearance

2009-03-19T02:13:00.002+08:00

new blogskin due to the extreme boredom at home.

life revolves around eating, slacking & sleeping

a lot of rest indeed.

but somehow felt a little tired in the inside.

suddenly, i don't feel like communicating with people.

i lose the will to or i am not willing to?

im still very much alive. that's for sure ;)

addiction to Kdrama

2009-03-08T22:39:00.003+08:00

out of boredom, decided to check out on a new Korean drama - 花样男子 (korean version of 流星花园)

totally not regretting cause it's getting me addicted. my eyes are glued to the screen 8D

though the storyline is about the same but i think korean version one is so much better. currently watching epi 11 already! heh heh. there's 25 episodes in total *squeals*

i like watching idol dramas cause it's so dreamy & nice. yet on the other hand, i don't really like because i chiong them in a few days. & i get so bored after that :(

check out the cute guys! (olivia, here are the real cute guys 8D)

they are all like above 1.8m。 watching just one episode is enough to get addicted

best thing is, even their girls look so pretty! though i find all of them having the same face.

俊表&智厚&易正 are super cute in this show :D

I will be waiting for you 그댈 기다릴게요

adaptation or acceptance?

2009-03-06T20:42:00.002+08:00

had some problems while reformatting lappy. scare the freak out of me.
called applecare & they said if i need them to provide technical support via phone, i will have to pay $49 (&that should be in US Dollars if i'm not wrong) & whats more. it might not solve the problem & the money will not be refunded. plus, i have problems understanding the person. his english is like &@#@&#@&.
the bad side of apple. i was pissed.
but got it solved. hope it wont die on me.

i want to play good online games!
i'm so bloody bored at home :(
but yet reluctant to get out of the house.

is there right or wrong to everything in this world?
for example, smoking.
most people will think it's a wrong thing because majority don't smoke (though there are more&more smokers)
but what if you are living in a city where everyone smokes & smoking becomes nothing unusual?
will you still stay firm to your stand and decline it.
is smoking a wrong thing or is it just because not everyone does it that's why it became a negative thing.

whatever we do. whatever we think is right or wrong. depends on our environment.
just like the western are so open minded while asians are more to conservative.
sometimes, is it because we are accepting something presumbly wrong or are we just adapting to the environment?

meaningless

2009-03-05T15:10:00.002+08:00

maybe i'm being harsh

but everything have to end.

it's too much to take

my laptop is working again miraculously after letting it rest for a night.

but my novalite is on the verge of dying if i continue to use it for nights.

i shall reformat lappy after finishing this entry.

yes. i'm like living the life of a slacker.

my life revolves around the comp this whole week.

that's why you see so many entries this week!

i'm on my way to be 宅女 8D

but i feel like going town. eat & eat.

& i wanna eat a lot of dim sum!

watched 一切完美2 yesterday. omg. fav-ed!

they slit the skin, separated the skin from the flesh

shiokness to watch XD

i wanted to blog about something but i forgot what X_X

ok byebye

stop lurking around

2009-03-04T15:35:00.002+08:00

i may not be that dumb to realise
it just makes me ponder on my own words
just how irony it is.
i'm scared of weird people. because i'm a very paranoid person
so much that i couldn't stand myself sometimes
or maybe because i'm weird myself too
& sadly to say, you turned out to be one

stop it. it's adding on to my mental stress
for a moment, i thought you were part of my hallucination (if i'm suffering from any)
cause it's just so freakishly freaky.
just...
who are you, may i ask?

on a side note, lappy went sot today.
good time to accompany my asus novelite instead

i don't know if i'm hungry or not.
seemed to be. seems not to be

mummy asked if i want to start my driving practical this week since i've practically nothing to do at home now. she said i can take up a few lessons per week since i'm like so bo liao at home. good idea. can't wait to drive on my own XD

after the edison's scandal, i kind of shrug whenever i see news of cecilia cheung on yahoo frontpage. first impression - don't like her. geez
but when i watched her interview on kangxilaile the day before. i realised she can be quite friendly&funny. nothing like what I thought she was.
even celebrities need to have their own personal life. just like teachers.
we are all humans.

so, first impression kills.
if there isn't a chance to get to know a person better to pull off that first impression.
then. GG

someone once told me. the first impression i gave was - dao (unfriendly)
but thanks. i'm nothing like that if you know me well enough.
i don't usually talk to people first because i've no idea what to talk about
(that's why you don't talk to me on the phone. cause i'm just a conversation killer)
i'm kinda introvert. and i don't say "hi" cause i'm unsure if it will be reciprocated. & i will look dumb if it don't
once you know me, i can be a very nice person
though enthusiasm level is more in the cyberworld, like facebook (omg. new fav 8D) & msn.

going on a first date?
make sure you dress well enough to not fail the first impression
& of course, behaviours matter a lot too ;)

a different holiday

2009-03-04T02:42:00.004+08:00

i made a bad choice by screwing up my holiday badly.

at least, it's just the beginning of it.

ahh! the ~~trackpad~~entire system of my beloved macbook is going haywire.

when it's holiday, the poor lappy isn't given a rest. unless i'm out of the house.

cause even when i'm not using it for hours, i'll just leave it on conveniently so that i could check out stuffs easily

now, it's getting on my nerves cause even the bimbotish hello kitty mouse isn't going to solve the trackpad problem. apparently, it's the fault with the system

time for a new mac? :(

can't blame for this dying on me.

once i placed it on a chair, with it still on & itunes playing. then the brilliant me just kicked the chair by accident. voila, poor lappy fell from quite a height (for a laptop? LOL) but still amazingly, managed to survive with no faults.

anyway, back to main topic.

i woke this morning, with a feeling that yesterday was nothing but a dream & i might have been possessed or something. seriously, it felt like a long-time-ago thing. gosh, & i am not quite being myself now.

i made a reflection yesterday (in fact, published for quite a while before taking it down), thinking how silly is one to take his/her own life when the blind hopes to catch a glimpse of the sunrise, the deaf would be contented to hear birds chirp. so many others are fighting for a chance to survive (e.g. cancer patients undergoing treatments or even people in poorer countries eating something disgusting, which you won't even want to eat, just so that they can continue to live)

as i said, it felt like a dream, i thought to myself, "this might not be the last time"

& thanks. i'm feeling kind of unwell again now.

someone's punishing me for not learning my lesson. please wake up, shimin!!

i felt, so not myself today.

it's like, i want to be a kid all over again.

waking up in the morning & snuggle up to mummy so she can make breakfast for me (but i make it myself in the end. cause i think i prefer my own cooking. LOL)

okay, i'm not anywhere young already XD

what a weird feeling.

i realised. my relationship with my brother isn't that very bad afterall.

perhaps sometimes when the wire sparks up in his brain, then i'll turn hysterical with him

i tend to think too much. paranoid.

we were laughing over a video just now. it's like the second making of stevenlim. zzz

i'm loving this holiday. no work. but lots of slacking

gonna rot like some maggots this week. i just feel like coping myself at home.

go to school next week.

i feel like going to vietnam after watching a variety show on it.

i'm attracted to their vietname spring roll. it looks nice 8D

#p.s: my laptop really going to GG T_T

back to basic

2009-03-02T02:58:00.003+08:00

felt so, worn out today

after so long, i finally feel that i am being myself

i could finally see the real me

only tears will wash away the facade?

will life be better tomorrow?

was it a sleepless for us?

somehow i wished i was the only one worrying ...

not a good person

2009-02-27T04:24:00.002+08:00

alcohol indeed makes you wild.
& do things beyond your control.
was it really the effect?
or were we seeking for something sub-consciously?

clubbing @ zouk on wednesday.
went to meet lindy, mich& olivia first with chwee before heading to meet bird, ps & tonglin
kendrick,alex,hs&daryl also went down

it was a crazy night.
i think i was gone. totally
luckily chweelum was there from companionship throughout.
& apologies to olivia&michelle for making you worried&pissed. LOL

saw a rainbow on the way to michelle's house. pretty!
but it doesn't seem to be of any help

with chweelum

~~sinned.~~ tio possessed more like it.
feeling so guilty!! :(
i shall stay at home to repent.
wanna be a 宅女!
HAHA

Miracles do happen

2009-02-25T13:47:00.002+08:00

I do believe in fate, i do believe in destiny & i do believe in miracles!

Yesterday was the presentation for MMp2, where we were supposed to do an animation that can interact with user when they walk past. Suddenly had an idea & edited the codes before we were supposed to present. But feels that 99% it's not going to work cause I had no idea what the codes were about & just trying my luck by copying & pasting. Plus, I didn't get a chance to test it.

The end result? When it was my turn to present, it totally works! & I was soooo stun that I couldn't present properly. Almost stuttering :|

MMP2 is so much more fun than SWEN & TRIF

But hopefully, I don't flunk any of that :(

Partying tonight with lovelies :D

Can't wait!

shit situation

2009-02-24T03:45:00.002+08:00

This is prolly a situation everyone of us face. Humans tend to go with the crowd.

Why so?

1. To gain a sense of belonging in the group

2. So that you won't be outcast

3. You're just being real bitchy

4. Cause it's fun! (aww, it's like building your happiness on someone's sorrow)

Usually, it's the latter. Unless you are so pathetic to fit in the bill for the first 2 XD

But in fact, their heart/idea might think otherwise.

& they have no idea by doing that, it is actually hurting the person.

but again, who can resist the "fun" from bitching about it?

whatever that you've bitched about a person could be so ridiculous that if one day someone were to say that of you, you'll prolly hit the roof.

but, we always fail to realise how ridiculous we are.

Something arising from facts could lead to gossips always.

Humans always face 进退两难 situation.

Everyone is just a hypocrite, including me & you.

I realised daddy always know what I want. Before I ask him for money, he will ask if I have enough to spend. That spares me from the trouble of thinking of excuses to get more allowance XD

I was thinking about a roadtrip yesterday. & today he suggested to go back to Perak, then KL or Malacca during brother's 1 week holiday.

I need to donate blood first & then proceed to lose 105KG!!! (lets not be so ambitious. LOL)

I ought to be determine this time arrrr. Since I have the whole holiday

& I dont have any plans to work.

It's 4:05am! & I have presentation at 9am! But I've yet to test my animation on touchbiance. GG

How high class can you get?

2009-02-22T17:56:00.002+08:00

I was taking a bus to school the other day, standing at a corner as there was no available seats & listening to my mp3, trying to act oblivious to the surrounding. Some lecturer once said, looking away from another person in a packed bus/train is to create private space within a crowded area for one self. Then, this old lady together with her daughter( I think) board the bus. For the new bus, the design is such that there is 4 priority seats in front for the needy. I look over to that area, & I realised, there's this 2 ladies and a man seating at the seat not supposedly meant for them.

Fyi, all are working adults. The man is obviously looking away, pretending not to see anything. But what really disgusted me was the 2 ladies, approx somewhat near 40s? They were busy talking away, even though they saw that old lady, and continue yanking away. They were well-dressed, somewhat look kinda classy. But that action, totally spoil the image.

That reminded me of Taiwan. Everyone queues up for the train, no one sits on the priority seats unless they fit the criteria, even on a packed train. When taking the escalator, everyone will stay to the left (or was it right) if they are not in a rush. When will Singapore ever comes to something like that?

& my dear friends will start to say I fit the bill for priority seat cause I'm old and disable (mentally disable that's it).

I read back 2007 archives. I realised I lost that substance. The feeling of being young & youthful. Now ar, it feels like a 28 year old blogging about life, worrying about life :(

I feel like going bangkok, or even malaysia will do fine, for some road trip. eat & play & sleep & eat & play & sleep XD

How not to be a lesbian?

2009-02-20T23:42:00.002+08:00

I never understand why would any normal girls turn into a lesbian & smooch someone of their same sex.

Now I get the reason why.

How do you resist a cute butch? I think cute butches are the reason to a girl on becoming a bi/homosexual.
I mean, why not? She's cute&looks like a guy (& much better looking than average guys). Most importantly, she is a girl. & guessing girls are much easier than guessing what a guy thinks?

But then again, it's not easy to find a cute butch. There's one at eski bar though XD

Sent wanyi off early in the morning. Woke at 7 am, & wow this is the time I usually reached home & sleep. Went to Kbox with wen, bird & trish before heading home to sleep till 9pm XDXD

I don't get it why most people don't dare to pursue their dreams and rather work 8 to 5 jobs to get a stable life. Think, we only get to live once, and we won't know when our life will end. So, why not do something you really like.

don't say its corny

2009-02-18T01:29:00.002+08:00

Spot a girl you like in a pub? Sing a love song to her, leave your phone number on a napkin. Inside the napkin, confess your love to her & ask her to remember to call you. Within a few days, you'll get a surprise sms & "what are you doing?" LOL

Now it really proves that old tricks really works.

don't say it's corny XD

Can I have a longer weekend this week?

candyfloss

2009-02-16T22:13:00.002+08:00

Remember I mentioned that I dreamt about candyfloss? XD

Bought a purple one together with Olivia at Tampines today. Been ages since I last ate one.

I was satisfied. but after finishing the whole packet. it sucks.

so bloody sweet & eww. okay okay they are supposed to be sweet. but well. it's just nothing like my dream.

Aiya aiya! I wanna get a japanese phone thanks to miss olivia teong. so bloody chio&cute, i'm referring to the phone XD

I wanted to put a photo up of Jazz's balding head but forgot. So here's it. See for yourself how bad the condition is. JAZZ! The hole is getting bigger & bigger. Heh heh heh

Oh heh heh. My flash animation is working after much brainstorming&decoding from Mr Rick&Lindy. But sadly, I only have a ferris wheel turning for animation. Sian half

Gotta mug in school next few days. Complete SWEN (written test on wed. fuck it) & most importantly, flash. Will I make it? Ok. No more going out in the weekends. & I need to start to find a job XD Schedule is so packed. zzz

Is it that the more you can't have something, the more you yearn for it & the moment you got hold of it, you let go of it.

Humans are so 贩贱~~

Happy Valentines!

2009-02-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentines peeps! ♥

I remembered celebrating valentines before once only, & not on the day itself if I didn't remember wrongly.

This year valentines was spent meaningfully, though without a lover XD

Went minds cafe in the noon (with mich, jane, lindy, benson, peisheng, jazz & qingsheng) & it was so funny playing snorta, cause my reaction is so slow & there's 8 of us playing that :(

benson & I decided to gang up playing Who's the boss, but ended up I only got 7 millions! The winner was qingsheng&peisheng with 71 millions each. ZZZ

heartracing session

we took pics with 2 random flower girls named olivia & valerie XD

woah first time to see olivia in a skirt XD

i think i took a nice pic here? XD

lovelies <3>

Bryan came to meet us at clarke quay. Slacked&drank for awhile before moving on to boat quay when boon & his friend, kenny came to meet us. Went to eskibar; it's so cool XD so freezing cold yet cozy inside XD played dare (truth or dare except no truth but dare) & it's so freaking funny. I was supposed to hold a rose using my mouth & present to the guy at the other table. Luckily, nothing paiseh enough. Boon sang "唯一" to a china lady there & hahaha she admire him so much XD before we left, we even wrote his number on the serviette & asked him to pass it to her. You wanna know what we wrote inside the napkin, sucker? "我爱你，记得打给我" that's the 8 words XD

The guy whom I gave the rose to :/

random girl & kenny (boon's friend)

LOL KUKU FACE

need to change to a higher ISO camera x_x

was reading this blog, which made me cried so much while reading :(

An Angel Added to Heaven

The blog is open by parents of 3 kids who didn't managed to survive long. Go read it :(

Have been reading blogs of young mummies since friday. Amazed by the number & age. Youngest was 17 (born in 1992) x_x I wonder if they will regret it in the future.

To think I was amazed by the 17 years old. Then I read this article; 13 year old boy became a father. wtf is the world coming to? x_x see the pic. he barely looks like a 10 year old kid lor! & wtf. why his gf seems so much bigger than him. It's hard to imagine the 2 are parents of a kid. ZZZ

I think I will suffer from post nata depression if I were to ever have a kid. I will worry if I will wake to find the kid dead. ZZ why does it seems easy for other people to raise their kid.

Damn. I totally feel sick today. Aching all over + tiredness + gastric :(:(

Prelims 2006

2009-02-09T02:02:00.003+08:00

I got reminded of how bad my O Level's preliminary results was. Dig my report book and this was what I found. 4 F9s + 1 E8, the last 5 in the whole level and the second last in class. I think my results during my secondary school are damn awesome XD & this was 6 weeks before O levels starts officially XD

My poly results are no better now anyway XD

Mr.Rick is gonna kill me for my MMP2 T_T

x_x

2009-02-07T23:12:00.005+08:00

Played mahjong at Ceed's house last night. I think we started at 10plus, but we we end the game around 3 plus in the morning. It's like one of the longest mahjong game I've ever played. Ceed was the biggest winner & I won enough to cover the cab fare XD

I should seriously stop going out at night. My parents are so bloody mad at me :(

One day they are going to disown me soon.

But I think nightlife suits me a lot though. Mummy said I should live in American since my lifestyle is so different from the others (sleep in the day and go out in the night). But then, if I was in America, I'll prolly sleep in the day and go out in the night too? That don't make any sense.

This holiday is totally screwed up like fuck.

I thought holiday starts next week, but apparently there is swen presentation & lab test on the week after. And MMP2 presentation 2 weeks later. & I've some random lessons during the mid of holidays cause I bloody fail my CDS. What a fuck up holiday. Grgh! Oh, pardon for the use of vulgarities. I need to release my anger T_T GRGH

I feel so emoszxzsxz all of a sudden. I feel like crying. For no reasons. Maybe I'm just stressed up. Yes, flash really stress the shit outta me T_T

I guess the desktop was really an impulse buy. I seldom use it & my brother uses it like 24/7. I'm so irritated by it.

8D @@ T_T O.O @.@ :3 :/ XD X_X are like my favourites now on msn.

I felt that I've changed a lot. Yes, people do change.

Mindset & mentality changed.

I used to be naive and was simply amazed by everything (that sounds moronic XD)

I used to like cutsey stuffs, I love pink a lot. Simply a lot. Sounds girlish.

Don't know since when. I prefer bold, strong colours like red and black. I told myself to be strong and I think I am, for I am egoistic and I put my pride above anything else. Have I been through so much to be like this? Can't remember a thing.

I used to be so frigging quiet, an introvert. It's so extreme that people thought I was a mute? HAHA. Does it sounds surprising to you? but I'm frigging serious about that. Slowly, I've opened up but that doesn't change my personality. I don't go up and talk to people, I don't initiate talks.

Did tarot readings online.

what you most want at this moment (The Devil)

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time you can’t have, like the forbidden fruit, which makes it all the more tempting. Or you could go for it but you know that it would be a bad choice and for all the wrong reasons. Yes, you want passion and gratification - just be careful where you go looking for it.

(I think this is so true, like the forbidden fruit. It's because you can't have it that makes it so tempting XD)

what is going for you (The Lovers)

New love and commitment will enter your life, even if there’s no one on the horizon - be prepared for a surprise. Throw caution to the wind and expect joyous and happy times ahead.

what is going against you (The Fool)

Beware of impetuous and impulsive decisions, they could cost you dear. Draw on your knowledge and experience, perhaps there are naive and immature beliefs behind your current desires. Are you looking to move onwards and upwards or run away? Look before you leap, you don’t want to appear the fool do you?

outcome (Death) - LOL. Am I like dying soon :( The death card seems ominous

This is a transformational time for you. However turbulent or perhaps distressing some of the events in your life may be, endings always leave room for brand new beginnings. This is a fresh start in life for you, embrace it and live every day as though it was your last, life is for living!

Maybe I'm dumb, maybe I'm not.

Maybe I'm trying to avoid, maybe I'm not.

For now, I don't want to think so much.

Dreams

2009-02-06T16:13:00.002+08:00

I had a nice, sweet dream in the morning.

Too bad it was disrupted by the alarm :(

But oh wells :)

Codes

2009-02-06T04:10:00.002+08:00

Random: Canon in D is a beautiful piece of music , but when I offered to send Lumchwee the link to the music, she declined, saying she dread it because it's her alarm ringtone. I thought that's weird.

Now I dread listening to Romeo&Juliet by Clazziqual (Korean), simply because it used to be my ringtone+alarm tone. & listening to it brings some kind of familiarity, as though it's telling me I'm supposed to wake up.

I like to leave my itunes playing when I am asleep, and whenever it starts to play that song, I'll wake -.-

Try using your favourite song as your alarm tone? One day you'll grow sick of it.

Damn. I'm so very tired. Actionscript sucks.

Only Singapore Flyer is animating :(

Read this : Kid wrote application for iPhone

Sigh. Am I supposed to be ashamed of myself? I can't even write a simple script for animation, let alone application? Awww :(

I hope I'll be able to wake at 8am. For I haven bloody complete my beta version T_T

Love

2009-02-03T22:09:00.003+08:00

is like a drug.

you know you can't have it, but it's as tempting as one.

without it, it feels like suffering from withdrawal symptoms.

every second feels long.

with it, sometimes you feel like abandoning it. cos' you know it's wrong.

as long as you'll be able to resist the temptation, all will be fine

Woah. Is it cheesy enough? xD

Okay, let this paragraph be dedicated to a darling someone. I'll share your worry too girl (:

Today at business park I came up with something cheesy enough.

"It's okay if you don't have your colour pencils. I'll be the colour pencils and let me fill your life up with colours"

Die. I seem to get bitten by the sleeping bug. I sleep & sleep non stop. & for perhaps 5 mins if I didn't reply, people will start assuming that I'm sleeping, and they are always damn right. & omg, even Olivia is doing that to me T.T

[c=7]★ 翼宿・翼宿・翼宿・翼宿 ★[/c] says: (8:17:20 PM)

omg you're not sleeping ar you!

[c=7]★ 翼宿・翼宿・翼宿・翼宿 ★[/c] says: (8:17:23 PM)

at this crucial time

Darlings <3

she looks like she's holding onto the lamp post & stoning. LOL

Wanni the bunni, are you sastify with this finally? xD

I'm gonna go take a bottle of chicken essense before I doze off again. ZZZ

2 nights out

2009-02-01T14:49:00.003+08:00

Spent Friday & Saturday night out. Daddy is so gonnna scream at me the moment I step out of my room :(

Watched Red Cliff 2 on Friday & went to Geylang for supper.

Actually Red Cliff isn't a bad show afterall. & perhaps because the cinema is so lousy that I don't think I get to sleep in there & what I can do is just to concentrate on the show.

The screen is high up, kinda small. & what's worse is the chair. It's like sitting on a rocking chair and it felt so dirty for some reason. I'm talking about the cinema in Lido btw.

Went Zouk last night. You can say it's a virgin clubbing experience cause I don't think underage club@MOS counts (omgzsxzs that was like 3 years ago -.-), without alcohol & dance. Seriously, clubbing is not my cup of tea though it's kinda fun. Now I know why girls who clubs are stereotyped as sluts. That didn't came to my mind cause I thought those who are smooching are couples. Apparently not.

Cause I'm not open, I'm not outgoing, I doubt clubbing will be my kinda thing. But it's good for an experience once in a while

Fun aside, it's time for work :(

Overload with Workload

2009-01-29T23:11:00.002+08:00

Seriously the workload is getting more and more nowadays but I've learnt nothing from there. It's just like, english lessons to me. Reports, reports and more reports are what I've did this term. It's just like writing composition with evidence from the internet. Get your source and think of ways to rephrase them. Instead of coming up with a Hansel and Gretel story, we are coming up with a device for them. ZZZ

I think, I may just find myself, failing this term.

If only it was a subject more technical, perhaps I would have learn something beneficial.

Tourism Informatics & Software engineering, are nothing but just crappy subjects filling up the slots in the timetable. GRGH

Yet, you can't say you don't want to do the projects.

I'm looking forward to MMP2 though, but I suck at Actionscript. Oh sigh...

& there's a report & presentation due tomorrow.

Why do I always find myself awake on Thurday night.

I need a nightlife out. To forget about these suffocating projects.

The reason why I sleep and sleep and sleep, is none other than an escape for reality.

To escape from the stress that is never going away.

& you can't say you are doing last minute work once again. for you'll never know which tongue is wagging behind you.

& this adds on to more stress. GRGH

It's hard to trust a person. Some people can just be hypocrites. Well, maybe sub-consciously, I am being one too. Sigh. Who is never a hypocrite no matter how much you don't want to be. Situation changes, facts hurts and sometimes it's just confusing. Why is it always that the more you know about a person, the more you demand from that person and the more ugly facts you'll dig.

Life is so funny sometimes.

Happy 初二

2009-01-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

This year new year is ... just like any other family day ):

For the past 18 years (minus one year where new year is the same as this & last year where I celebrated new year for the first time back in Perak) I've been visiting my maternal' side of family & it have became a favourite day of the year where I get to meet all my cousins & relatives.

Daddy did the cooking for reunion cooking this year. Mummy will never be seen doing the cooking cause she can't cook for nuts.

I spent my 初一 this year waking up late. Went to vivo. Did some shopping (though most shops are closed but I still managed to buy things from each shop that are opened) & went to watch "The wedding game". Kinda nice I guess & fann wong is soooo pretty x)

Then we head over to marina promenade. The skylight of Singapore is still my favourite (:

Second day of new year, which is today, sucks. Woke up at 2pm. Ate & slack for a while and I went back to sleep. ZZZZ Let's pray next year new year will be better.

Happy new year (:

2009-01-26T00:37:00.002+08:00

This year new year.. so don't feel like new year at all. Let's just hope the year will be a good one and next year will be better (:
It's also fatass brother's birthday. That little brat that irritate the shit out of me.

I'm getting irritated very easily nowadays. Grgh.

Oh! & this is my new layout (:
No more black. No more emozsxzs. & no more unlocked blog. Cause I'm contemplating to change blog address.

I got so frigging irritated by a someone recently but well, peace brings harmony so 任一时风平浪静.
But I'm not going to forget whatever that whateverszxszxs said. I'll bear that in mind, not to worry.
Again, don't bother asking who. Cause it might prolly be you. Pfft.

Didn't sleep the whole night on Thursday, except for that particular pathetic 1 hour. Went for etiquette workshop in the morning at 9am. It was kinda interesting to say. But min, becca & me were so hungry throughout xD
went to meet my 38s after that. long time~~ since we last went out. shopped around & ate our "reunion dinner" that is ma la steamboat. All time favourite. Slacked & camwhored at TCC before the girls head home & I went to meet the airport peeps.

Went topone ktv for the first time. Ceed & me was practically sleeping or stoning inside cause we were so tiredzsxzs. Plus the session is till 5.30am (we went in like 11 or 12am?) Slept at 7am till 9pm I think? Then slept at 4am again. Omgzsxzs still very tired T.T

Koop-ed this from Michelle's blog. Very inspirational I guess? I'm inspired to be a photographer. There's so much photos can convey.

My mum died suddenly on September 4th, 2006.

After she died, I realised how much she’d been shielding me from my father’s mental state.
He doesn’t have alzheimers, but he has no short-term memory, and is often lost.

I took him to my mother’s funeral, and to the burial,
but when we got home, he’d ask me every 15-20 minutes where my mother was.
I’d explain carefully that she had died, and we’ve been to her funeral.

This was shocking news to him.

Why had no one told him?
Why hadn’t I taken him to the funeral?
Why hadn’t he visited her in the hospital?

He had no memory of these events.

After a while, I realised I couldn’t keep telling him that his wife had died.
He didn’t remember and it was killing both of us,
to re-live her death constantly.

I decided to tell him she’s gone to Paris, to take care of her brother, who was sick.

And that’s where she is now.
This exhibition is part of a journal.
An ongoing record of my father, and of our relationship.
For whatever days we have left together.

I asked my father to look in the mirror, while I took his photograph.

Now, the things you have to realise about my dad is that
he was a very handsome man when he was young.
When people talk about ‘film star handsome’, well, that was my dad.
In fact, he WAS a film star (of sorts), in Hollywood, during the 1930’s.

So when he looks in the mirror, he sees a man ravaged,
a man no longer beautiful,
and that upsets him deeply.

You see, he’s still vain at 98.
In fact, his vanity can be quite extraordinary.

I tried to take him to the doctor a few months ago, but on the way out,
he caught a glimpse of himself in the hall mirror.

He was so horrified wit his appearance, that he refuse to leave the house until
I found a ‘black pencil’ to dye his white hair with..

I find these scraps of writing all over the house…
they are a glimpse into his mind,
the disquiet he tries to hide from me.

Where is everyone.

What’s going on.

How lost he feels.

My dad spends enormous amounts of time in the toilet.

Because he has no short term memory, he can be in there for 2-3 hours at a time.

It’s both heartbreaking, and infuriating.

He’ll do his business, then stand up, and as he’s putting on his pants,
say, “Wait a second - I have to go”

If you try and reason wit him, and explain that he’s just gone,
he’ll look at you as if you’re an idiot…

Eating is often a miserable experience.

I realise now why my mother cooked the same meals over and over,
towards the end of her life.

They were the only things my father would eat.

The ONLY thing he’ll eat with any regularity is eggs.
Scrambled eggs, egg salad, egg-drop soup from the local chinese.
He eats insane amounts of eggs.

And yet, when I took him to the doctor recently, his cholesterol was down!

Maybe there are health benefits to an all-eggs diet!

Because my parents had me so late,
my dad was essentially retired when I was growing up.

But for my ambitious, driven father, he wasn’t retired at all,
just working on his next career.

Being an artist.

I have so many memories of him listening to opera, sketching, painting, sculpting.

Although he doesn’t paint anymore, he still sees.
He still has the artistic impulse.

He was admiring the sunset, saying that he could make a ‘whole series’ of paintings
around those wonderful colours…

The urge is still there, even if the physical ability is not..

This sums up everything about my father.

It’s who he is, and it’s what’s left.
Ambition.

As a child, I grew up on stories of my father’s daring in the business world.

For him, everything was always possible.

A few months ago, we were reading the paper together.
He was engrossed in the novelist Sidney Sheldon’s obituary,
and it mentioned that he’d record books into a tape recorder,
producing work at a prolific rate.

My dad turned to me, and said, “We could do that!”

He always pushed me to do better, to work harder.

It actually made me a little crazy.

And now, it’s the one question he always asks me.

What am I doing in my career? How am I furthering myself?

Nothing cheers up my dad, like stories of my success.
So if he’s down, or obsessing about something,
I’ll immediately conjure up a blossoming career.

I’m shooting for The New York Times. The New Yorker.
Multi-million dollar advertising campaigns.

Sometimes it’s true, sometimes not.

But it doesn’t matter.

The important thing is to fill him with as much joy as I can.

His face bursts with happiness.

He’ll say “I have to tell ALL my friends, my son is famous!”

I found one of my dad’s films.

It’s a Charlie Chan detective story, shot in the 30’s.

We watched it together this afternoon.
(That’s him on the right)

I don’t think he’d seen it since it was made.

He told me that he was too young to grow the required pencil mustache,
so he had to have it ‘glued on’.

It’s amazing to see my dad, not as my father,
but as a young man.

Vigorous, lucid, filled with life.

Me, my mother, our lives together,
all shrouded in the vast unknown before him…

Sometimes, when we’re talking,

my dad will stop, and sigh,
and close his eyes.

It’s then that I know, that he knows.

About my mum.

About everything.

Happy Lunar New Year ((:

Week4

2009-01-19T01:47:00.003+08:00

Last week was very very slack. No school on Thursday & Friday! It felt like a long holiday. & even if there's school, we'd be playing pets society. Lifeless but better than listening to Mr Choy Chun Kong's lecture about his 1.3mil (or was it 1.8mil? heck) house, 2 cars of which 1 is jaguar and other mundane stuffs irrelevant to Tourism Informatics or Mr Thomas Yee talking about the society. Mr Sankara is best. He remain silent throughout the lesson.

Played mahjong with Yangbo, Hanchiew & Xiaohuihui on Friday.

& they finished the leftover cordon bleu from new year's eve & bloody hell open another bottle. I think martell totally sucks. The smell is revolting.

Shit. Projects are going to screw the shit outta me :(

I'm having strong urge to go back to taiwan again! always this darn period.

I wanna eat fried chicken with ham & cheese, ice every single day. omg. i totally can't wait to go back if not for my failing cds, I'd go this holiday.

taipei101, wait for me xD but mummy said its good to explore new places

so I'm aiming for hongkong & taiwan this year. this march holiday, let's just settle for some neighbouring countries. damn i hope it'll be fun & i won't get killed in bombs or something.

i'm out for some changes. to become a better person (:

Minds Cafe

2009-01-11T21:31:00.004+08:00

Totally had a lot a lot a lot of sleep.

Reached home around 9am on Saturday. Bathe & woke at 7pm. Went back to sleep around 1am and woke at 12pm today. & napped again at 5pm till 7 plus.

& shit. I have yet to do mmp2 (which was supposedly due on Fri) & SWEN presentation slides.

BTT on tuesday, not yet studied too :(

Snapped my hair short again with mummy on Friday. Shorter than before :(

Minds cafe with Ceed, Angela, Hansheng, Daryl & Kendrick after that. Been a real long time since I went there.

& went for some drinks again at boat quay. I seriously think that martell sucks.

I've been a real good girl. I took green tea instead (:

With Angela (:
With Angela & Ceed

Back Alley is definitely cool for some shots (:

with "da-best-kor-kor-in-the-world" & angela
with long lost brother, kendrick YU (:

Piggybacks

Sigh. better get started on my work first before I get tired again & sleep for another 12 hours. GG

Ceed showed me & daryl this ad posted online.

The person felt like a psycho with uniform fetish.

"All above will be done with your uniform put on"

(click to enlarge)

I'm only 18, so I shouldn't think like a 28. That was a very good piece of advice from best korkor. HAHA

I ought to remind myself constantly.

2009 sucks

2009-01-07T19:35:00.005+08:00

I gotta admit that 2009 started off real bad, with me getting drunk on new year eve; puked on new year day and having migraines every single day after that & many many other things.

I hope this is not going to be like that for the rest of 2009.

Comeon' I'm 19 this year and so happen that 19 is my favorite number. You gotta treat me fair this year yeah? :)

Cartilage piercing sucks. The stud dropped while I was drunk and a little bump developed. Now it's kinda fat and swollen.

I'm so facebook-siao recently. Instead of being a good girl, paying attention to class, I choose to engage in facebook and doing stupid stuffs like getting into a relationship with my lesbo. Heh heh, Boon & Michelle are finally dating each other

Me & Lesbo...

The latest couple in town!!
& very idiotly childish :X

I have so many wants for 2009, ~~mostly~~ all techy gachy x)

Ipod Nano Monochrome (Purple one looks nice! Red one is not too bad too)
Nikon DSLR (a semi pro one will do)
PSP Slim (In red! Just because it looks chio ...)
Nintendo Wii! (I wanna play cooking mama and tennis on it!)

Heh! Shall get ipod first when new year comes.

Contemplating to apply for credit card too cause I'll be so heavily in debt if I ever get it & mummy would prolly kill the shit outta me.

Lessons seemed long today

2009-01-06T14:56:00.003+08:00

Software engineering ... He's like talking to himself while the whole class is facebook-ing/viwawa-ing

Was talking to no brainer hansheng online then I burst out laughing. Man... it's so stupid.

shimin says: (2:41:00 PM)
hahahaha not as much as you i guess. at least im not a fat old balding man
shimin says: (2:45:23 PM)
facts are harsh
[瀚 ]aN [升 ]henG - says: (2:45:23 PM)
COCK!
shimin says: (2:45:27 PM)
you gotta take it
[瀚 ]aN [升 ]henG - says: (2:45:32 PM)
my hair are bushy
[瀚 ]aN [升 ]henG - says: (2:45:37 PM)
alot alot
[瀚 ]aN [升 ]henG - says: (2:45:40 PM)
where gt bald
[瀚 ]aN [升 ]henG - says: (2:45:43 PM)
i change shampoo liao
[瀚 ]aN [升 ]henG - says: (2:45:45 PM)
LOL!!!!!!!
shimin says: (2:47:07 PM)
bushy like tt?
(changed display pic)

shimin says: (2:47:09 PM)
LOL
[瀚 ]aN [升 ]henG - says: (2:47:16 PM)
better den that
[瀚 ]aN [升 ]henG - says: (2:47:16 PM)
LOL!
[瀚 ]aN [升 ]henG - says: (2:47:53 PM)
in a hokkien way is
[瀚 ]aN [升 ]henG - says: (2:47:58 PM)
sibei bushy

eating pocky, msning, facebook-ing in midst of lesson. ZZZ

god. I wanna change my blog layout :D

Happy 2009

2009-01-04T00:45:00.004+08:00

Pics taken yesterday with ceed's coolpix (nikon rocks :D)

As said, went to watch Transporter3 followed by pub. & godamn. Movie sucks. I totally detest movies, most prolly cause I cannot stand sitting in the same place without moving for hours. Urgh

I totally think that ceed's friend (the one beside me in black tee) looks like Qingsheng!!! For a moment I was thinking might be Qs brother or something. HAHA

My lovely classmates, don't you all think so?

Woke up in the noon at 2 plus & went out again with my family.

I thought, aha! at least I feel the festive mood for new year walking around streets of chinatown. Then mommy said that we're not going back M'sia this year, neither we are going to my uncle's house as it isn't 3 years yet. It dampened my festive mood immediately. Looks like I'll be staying up at home watching shows :(

I'm super into tomyum recently but I can't take spicy stuffs. Leaves my stomach burning :S

I wanted to do up a list of things i did in 2008. Due to mental blocks & laziness, I give up :D

i need to end all the unrealistic. goodbye (:

A promise is always hard to fulfil

2009-01-03T05:23:00.002+08:00

URGH. I wonder if this is a curse

In my last post .....

I'm not gonna drink again. Even if I go pub I'll just drink orange juice.

& thanks lor. I went pub today at boat quay with daryl, ceed & 3 of his friends.

Luckily I didn't drink a lot. The thought of alcohol makes me wanna puke. I'm feeling nausea again :S

I remember in a post dated in July, I wrote this ...

IM NOT GOING TO "" IN THE NEXT 3 MONTHS
IM NOT GOING TO EAT MORE THAN 1 PILLS PER NIGHT
IM NOT GOING TO DRINK
I'LL TRY NOT TO TAKE CABS TO SCHOOL
and i'll tell myself that my life is good

I fulfilled all of the above except for 1 & 3 the very very next day -.-

I'm not gonna swear in my blog ever again.

I feel like drinking tomyum :(

& the purpose to lock my blog is not

1) because I am emo

2) I'm trying to block someone out from reading

I just suddenly dislike the feeling of unknown people reading.

I think my parents are going to disown me sooner or later at the rate that I'm going home real late. SIGH

Bad hangover

2009-01-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

Went over to Hanchiew's place last night for his so called new-year-party. Drank vodka plus martell. I had the worst hangover ever. Vomited all over the floor back at wen's place & vomited stomach acid (practically nothing else was left though I still felt nausea) back home in the evening. Now, I'm still feeling nausea.

Damn damn damn damn.

I bet I'll be able to vomit for the 4th round if I force myself to. I'm feeling weak all over. It felt pretty miserable to even stand or sit up :(

I hope I'll be fine tomorrow. I godamn hate the nausea feeling. I wonder how pregnant ladies stand morning sickness. That'll be sick

I'm not gonna drink again. Even if I go pub I'll just drink orange juice.

CDS got non graded. sigh

Happy 2009 :D

Confessions

2008-12-29T22:02:00.002+08:00

Godamn
原来我不乖 =.=

- I don't do homework
- I skip school
- I scold fuck (only hor. unlike chweelum)
- I play mahjong (used to. getting very sian at the thought of it now)
- I drink (occasionally ok, like thrice? & i super dislike the taste of alcohol :S)

& there comes the biggest confession I'm gonna make.

I S***ED BEFORE (go figure out yourself la; but to clarify I'm not a regular of it but tried it a few times)

T.T

that was like my biggest regret also to even start T.T

I swear to never touch it again.

Okay, now I've confessed. I'm a brand new person & I have done neither of the things above before :D:D & I will deny to all the above from today onwards.

I'm trying to be a decent, nice & 乖 person.

sigh. who am I trying to deceive -.-

tricia says: (10:27:25 PM)
you're guai lan
tricia says: (10:27:28 PM)
not not guai
shimin says: (10:27:31 PM)
fuck u
tricia says: (10:27:57 PM)
you of course canoot fight the guai people

I don't want to unlock my blog anymore. It's perfectly fine in this way

Not secretive

2008-12-28T18:18:00.002+08:00

As you've noticed, it's now invitation only readers :D
I know very troublesome but in a more constraint field allows me to type freely :D

Die. Body clock totally screwed up!
Sleep in the morning & wakes at 4pm everyday. School is starting tomorrow!!
Lecture starts at 9am but I'm gonna skip it & go to school at 11am :D:D
I haven went to a lecture for 12678362176 years already.

Contemplating to switch blog host.

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merry xmas!

2008-12-27T03:04:00.003+08:00

I want a personal mini fridge this christmas! & filled with Yakults/Vitagen & Marigold Jello!

I'm damn addicted to vitagen grapes & marigold almond logan & apple jello :D:D

It's a sad christmas this year, with totally no festive mood. Had seafood steamboat with my family on Xmas eve. What a cheena way of celebrating :|

Met up with Jazz, Jane, Bryan, Mich & Lindy on Xmas for some drinking. Drank less than a cup of beer + Jack daniels & I puke a few mouthful. Must be the cheese sausage & curry chicken from british takeaway :( I don't like the taste of alcohol, but I like the aftermath of it.

I totally love the ambience of clarke quay & the colourful colourful bridge.

We spent the night there; it was Lindy & Jane's virgin night out (:

All was well except for that darn cold bloody wind that leaves me shivering. Nevertheless, I <3 riverside

It was a rather :| night to me. Sat alone for a while to ponder on some stuffs & this filipino man sat beside me & offered me cigg & asked why am I alone. Stunned, I walked away while he was not looking & back to my comfort zone. & after a while this old man came to where we were and I reckon he's gonna steal our stuffs (as we left it unattended on the tables) if he did not notice us.

What a pathetic night. Reached home at 7.30am :| Tired~

She slept throughout the night! Lying everywhere she could :X

me & Janey

Skipped xmas meal at mr johnathan's place as sleeping seemed much better than eating.

Anyway, Merry Christmas to all :D

Kuakua

2008-12-23T12:27:00.002+08:00

A whole day of wild wild wet yesterday noon & going airport for popeyes (w/ Mich & Jane) plus late night kbox (w/ Kendrick, Zoro, Hansheng & Daryl) == SUPER DUPER TIRED

I almost fell asleep in kbox.

But nevertheless, had a fun time in wild wild wet, till I was feeling I was still in the tsunami pool last night before sleeping :D

Splatter lots of sunblock spf 50++, not kua zhang ok. At least I didn't turn exactly black.

I think I'm really slow.

I always realised things in a retarded speed.

Gotta go learn driving if I ever want to get my license :|

Tagged by bunbun

1. do you have secrets?
maybe I do, maybe I don't

2. would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
no & never

3. do you enjoy going school?
occasionally

4. what would you do with a billion dollars?
fly around the whole world, do a bit charity and go die

5. which is more blessed, being loved or loving someone?
neither is

6. list out 10 favourite songs
canon in d & minuet

7. if the person you admired is attached, what will you do?
like that lor

8. is there anything that makes you extremely happy?
eat sleep play

9. what makes you angry?
people with high IQ but extremely low EQ!

10. how would you see yourself in 10 years time?
maybe I'll just die tomorrow

11. who is currently the most important person to you?
my mum & dad

12. what is the most important thing in life?
to be able to eat a lot and sleep a lot :D

13. would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single & rich

14. what is your fav colour?
black

16. if you fell in love with 2 people, who will you pick?
none

17. would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a person has done to you?
I forget things easily though

18. what do you want to tell the person you like?
nothing

19. what type of person will you fall in love with?
dean fujioka preferably :D:D

20. list 5 people to pass this on to:
1. Michelle
2. Becca
3. Olivia
4. Bimboseng
5. Lee hanchiew

& omg. I seriously don't know why I bother to do this. Must be too tired to get out of my bed.

Kuakuakua