i'm feeling sad for the teenagers (am i still considered one?). i meant those in secondary school and still way far to be deem mature

right now, just thinking of my parents will bring me to tears. the reason to why tears can't stop for the whole day. cause till now then i realised i can never love them enough. and i'm afraid for the day that they will not be with me. everyday and every hour spent with them is not enough.

i used to shout at my dad saying i hate him too. i used to dislike my mum like some crap. i thought she was so freaking annoying and can't stop nagging for goodness sake. even though she is still constantly doing that to my brother and i still find it annoying but now i know it's all for a good cause. wishing for the nagging to cease? wait till one day when it really happens then we will yearn for it. why do people always learn how to treasure only when they lose it? i think those people are pathetic losers.

my dad and i. we don't talk to each other. as in maintain a conversation.

my mum and i. i dont express my feelings in front of her. in fact, them.

i really really love my parents. i want to give them the best if i could in the future. sometimes i wish i could just give them a hug or let them know how i feel. but it's just so hard

my brother and i. we quarreled and fight a lot. he pisses the shit out of me. he's causing me to go hysterical. he's causing me to be abnormal. does he even know it's hurting me to see him hurting our parents? as much as i dislike him. dislike him for being so unreasonable. i can't bring myself to hate him. i still love my brother as well. just hope that he will learn to grow up.

it's just sad to see people blaming their parents for every single thing. how hurtful will their parents feel if they ever learn to know? maybe i'm feeling sad for their parents. doing so much for your kids but look. what do you get in return? yet you can't bring yourself to ignore them cause they are your flesh and blood.

till one day when your parents are gone then you regret the things that you've said?

it'll be too late. life is short. 

i just hope whoever that reads this post will learn to appreciate the people around us before they are gone (: