Played mahjong at Ceed's house last night. I think we started at 10plus, but we we end the game around 3 plus in the morning. It's like one of the longest mahjong game I've ever played. Ceed was the biggest winner & I won enough to cover the cab fare XDI should seriously stop going out at night. My parents are so bloody mad at me :(One day they are going to disown me soon.But I think nightlife suits me a lot though. Mummy said I should live in American since my lifestyle is so different from the others (sleep in the day and go out in the night). But then, if I was in America, I'll prolly sleep in the day and go out in the night too? That don't make any sense.This holiday is totally screwed up like fuck.I thought holiday starts next week, but apparently there is swen presentation & lab test on the week after. And MMP2 presentation 2 weeks later. & I've some random lessons during the mid of holidays cause I bloody fail my CDS. What a fuck up holiday. Grgh! Oh, pardon for the use of vulgarities. I need to release my anger T_T GRGHI feel so emoszxzsxz all of a sudden. I feel like crying. For no reasons. Maybe I'm just stressed up. Yes, flash really stress the shit outta me T_T I guess the desktop was really an impulse buy. I seldom use it & my brother uses it like 24/7. I'm so irritated by it. 8D @@ T_T O.O @.@ :3 :/ XD X_X are like my favourites now on msn. I felt that I've changed a lot. Yes, people do change.Mindset & mentality changed.I used to be naive and was simply amazed by everything (that sounds moronic XD)I used to like cutsey stuffs, I love pink a lot. Simply a lot. Sounds girlish.Don't know since when. I prefer bold, strong colours like red and black. I told myself to be strong and I think I am, for I am egoistic and I put my pride above anything else. Have I been through so much to be like this? Can't remember a thing.I used to be so frigging quiet, an introvert. It's so extreme that people thought I was a mute? HAHA. Does it sounds surprising to you? but I'm frigging serious about that. Slowly, I've opened up but that doesn't change my personality. I don't go up and talk to people, I don't initiate talks.Did tarot readings online.what you most want at this moment (The Devil)
The cards suggest that what you most want at this time you can’t have, like the forbidden fruit, which makes it all the more tempting. Or you could go for it but you know that it would be a bad choice and for all the wrong reasons. Yes, you want passion and gratification - just be careful where you go looking for it.(I think this is so true, like the forbidden fruit. It's because you can't have it that makes it so tempting XD)
what is going for you (The Lovers)
New love and commitment will enter your life, even if there’s no one on the horizon - be prepared for a surprise. Throw caution to the wind and expect joyous and happy times ahead.
what is going against you (The Fool)
Beware of impetuous and impulsive decisions, they could cost you dear. Draw on your knowledge and experience, perhaps there are naive and immature beliefs behind your current desires. Are you looking to move onwards and upwards or run away? Look before you leap, you don’t want to appear the fool do you?
outcome (Death) - LOL. Am I like dying soon :( The death card seems ominous
This is a transformational time for you. However turbulent or perhaps distressing some of the events in your life may be, endings always leave room for brand new beginnings. This is a fresh start in life for you, embrace it and live every day as though it was your last, life is for living!Maybe I'm dumb, maybe I'm not.Maybe I'm trying to avoid, maybe I'm not.For now, I don't want to think so much.
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